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Name Change!!!

I am pleased to announce that after 3 years of having dusty forms, almost 23 years of having this god awful name 'derek joseph fletcher' and 2 years of being tooo scared to go alone downtown. I have as of today submitted my name change application, so its on its way to thunder bay pending aproval. 4-8 weeks and I will Be Erin Amelia Fletcher legally , my patience will be tested like its xmas....I am on cloud 9 now wait till then and cloud 9 will be an understatement lol

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I've Got It

I've Got It!

There was a recent blog about significant people in ones life having dementia.

My dad died of Alzheimer's at age 72 in '96. There are family stories of men dieing from doing crazy things, in old age, in my dad's family. I think the family might be a hereditary propensity toward Alzheimer's. My mom has Alz now at age 87; she's almost completely gone mentally. There is no evidence that hers has a genetic component.

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Koff, koff, meh.

Why does everything always happen at the same time? I've had this cold for well over a week now, and it's so bad I can cough in my sleep, often without waking. It's also worked it's way down into my chest, and up into my sinuses...

So the bad weather happens just about now as well, and to top it all I just accidentally trashed one of my servers... twice.

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Prom-ise to my Self

I made a critical girl mistake that any rational woman would scoff at me for: I refused to buy my actual dress size. Yes, I'm one of those types. Sure I could have got that red A line in a 16 (XL) and probably had room to spare, but no, I went for 12 (L). My ego will not allow me to be a 16. So on go the spanx and in I will wedge myself and hope that the industry is also playing to my ego by having a size 12 actually be a 16. I know, I know it's shallow. I should just be comfortable, and not worry about numbers but man... no! I will not kowtow to my overindulgence.

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Comfortable Stockings

In some areas of my life I am unapologetically weird. Pantyhose make me feel claustrophobic, so I always wore gartered stockings, which I gave up on when I was Muslim, because with floor length skirts, who needs anything but cotton anklets? So, now that I have rejoined a wider community, I can wear skirts up to my knees, so in more formal situations, I need to wear stockings again.

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Thank You

Just saying thank you for the kinds words regarding my previous stories. I thought I was done after the second installment of the Cedar Falls epic. Programmed and Reprogrammed interested many of you. Thank you for that. Presently I am working on a "tweener". A story crammed between the timeline of Programmed and Reprogrammed. I crossed the fifty thousand word line and am searching for another ten k for chapter six.

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Proving something else could go wrong

My last blog was about my computer. My phone has decided to join the wifi antenna of my computer in the land of the dead. I am using a roommates computer, but he's really picky about what sites people visit on it, so until I can get my computer a new antenna, I will just be at home, writing....if I can keep the stupid cats out of my computer chair

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And Then I Came Out

So, yeah. Life happened, huh? My wife and I welcomed an adorable baby girl into the world and the days since have been just so full of joy. It's been hard to really think about the girl-side with so many things going on professionally and personally. I gotta tell you, when you're over 6 feet tall in your thirties and packing an extra 20 lbs, you really consider hanging up the skirt. Mine had been hung for well on 9 years and I was no longer the 155 lb waif I once was.

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A Wyld Conversation - Part 2

Hello again. If you're wondering where the first part of this went, go here. I imagine a lot of people will have to click the link since I only got eighty some odd hits. :( (Half a dozen blogs were posted within an hour of part 1 so it got pushed off the page before hardly anyone could see it.)

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BIG NEWS!

Well, last night, before I went to work, my mom let me know that my ex mentioned reading my letter when she dropped off Sam after having her for the day. Mom said that my ex's only comment was, "Well, he'll always be Todd to me." If that's the wost that comes out of this, its a pretty darn good result.

Then, I got to work, and my supervisor passed on a compliment from the day staff in the fashion department . He said they had said, "Can we keep her?" So that made me feel pretty good.

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That is the way the Cookies crumbles.

I know it has been mentioned at least once. But, here in California one of the supposed more foreword thinking areas of the USA. Unfortunately this is not true, and her parent may have affected her opinions of a person her has never seen in the flesh according to the sources I have read and the videos I have seen both in her favor and against the views he has taken. There is Girl Scout who is trying to under mine the organization of girl scouting.

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Life Update- still no stories

I finalized on the house on Monday, so I am now an owner of property. I've had the plumber come out and got those little odds and ends taken care of. I also had the outside pressure washed and the yard work done. On this coming Monday, I have the exterminator coming out to deal with the termites and the spiders (ICK!!!) and all the little carpenter ants. I've had the bed and the living room delivered, so technically I can sleep there. But I still have no wires. Actually, that's a lie, I have two hundred feet of wire, it's sitting in a coil on the counter.

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Had a nice lunch with a friend

Just got back from lunch with a friend from the local trans support group. It was really nice, especially when they said I'm more feminine than most of the other members, some of whom have already transitioned fully.

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Blayze's Blog- On therapy, Real life and where Chapter 13 is

So I am mildly surprised to find myself posting another bit on my blog. In fact just typing 'my blog' seems weird to me, but cool anyway. I have been kind of having a pause over the last month. Personally I find christmas and New Year a very sad time of year and it gets me down. However there are changes on the way. My wife and I have made the decision to move South asap, and get a fresh start. Both of us feel much better just from making that decision. So now we are making preparations and selling stuff of to get moved. 2012 is gonna be a big year.

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The universe is telling me something

This is an election year. It is also a leap year. Tomorrow, the annual American football championship game will be played, and the teams competing in this year's Super Bowl are the New England Patriots and the New York Giants. Four years ago it was also a leap year, and an election year, and the Giants faced the Patriots in the Super Bowl.

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Blake Lively Tells 'Elle' If She Has Sons 'They Better Be Tr

Blake Lively Tells 'Elle' If She Has Sons 'They Better Be Trannies’

I've posted blogs containing news items that I think would be of interest to this community, on several occassions, but have not actually commented on the news item. I have to comment tonight.

I do not know anything about this actress, in fact never heard of her before seeing the article, but the woman has to be deranged, and would be a dangerous parent.

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The Family Girl #028: Lessons from the Heart

In My Life -
Thoughts and Dreams and Hopes

"Crying is all right in its own way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do." - C.S. Lewis

a blog by Andrea DiMaggio
 
The Family Girl Blogs
(aka "The New Working Girl Blogs")

Blog #28: Lessons From the Heart -
A Blog by Aunty Andrea and her niece, Bobbie C.
To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link:
http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

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Getting stronger

I think I'm getting stronger, and I dont mean physical strength. One way I'm getting stronger is the ability to stop beating myself up over mistakes. For example, yesterday I started to regret getting my hair done. I realized it was not the best use of the money I had gotten for my bottles, that I had other things I should have done first. But rather than spend hours calling myself names, which would have been my response before, I simply filed the whole thing in a mental box called "stuff to learn from", and let it go.

'I slept with 1000 men'

Apparently, this self confessed 'sex-addict' confessed on national day time television that she'd had over a thousand male lovers, then revealed she'd had a sex change.

She apparently wanted to do a photoshoot with the Sun. Attention seeking or what? Voice was quite good though.

Sadder than any character I could dream up in my stories.

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/4105691/This-Morni...

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Just to let you all know.

That I'm taking a bit of a break from writing or I have been and will continue to until the feeling comes back to write. Between RF family obligations and a full time job I just need a break from something so I can do a lot of other things I've been meaning to do.

With no shortage of great writers here I know you'll be fine.
*Great Big Hugs*
Bailey.

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Cliffhangers

As I mentioned in some story comments...

I'm beginning to suspect that EOF, Ang, Maggie, and a few other authors all got together and decided to hold a cliffhanger contest.

Now that we're all hanging off of half a dozen cliffs, has a winner been declared?

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Working hard

I have not been around much as of late. Some few of you may have noticed and/or missed me, but I rather suspect that with the plethora of new talent and engaging stories, there're also a lot of new readers -- and the vast majority probably haven't a clue even who I am.

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a productive day

Well, despite still fighting the flu, I had a productive day. I got my laundry done, and took my bottles to be recycled. I took the money I got from that and spent some on getting my hair done, which was a nice experience for me since I asked them to do a more feminine style, and they had no issue with it. Again, the amazing tolerance of Canadians comes through.

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Thailand's Transgender Flight Attendants:

Thailand's Transgender Flight Attendants: PC Air Takes On Groundbreaking Cabin Crew

I guess these girls would have problems with flying into Canada based on the information in my last blog about Canada's law regarding the identity of folks flying. Maybe there is an exception for flight crews.

Based on the photos these women have no problem passing in public.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/12/15/thailand-transgende...

RAMI

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New DarkRealms Resource

Back in the early days of The DarkRealms Universe (when we'd only been introduced to a couple of vampires), I sensed that it had the potential to expand and introduce us to Lots of Characters. So, rather than attempting to write a story (which knowing my writing speed you'd probably see sometime never!), I decided to create a Wiki to hold information on the people, places and events connected with Ravencrest.

So here it is: The DarkRealms Universe Wiki.

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Mermaid first class

I read the most wonderful story by Cindilee,"Mermaid First Class" I usually don't do a blog about someones story, but this time I felt it was neccessary. I started to read the story yesterday, being retired Navy I had a slight misunderstanding. I left a message with the author at the end of the story, but ensured it was a flaming comment or deroggatory. I read the complete story a few hours ago. I pm the author to let her know I thought her stroy was wonderful and I wanted let her know I appreciated it, even after my attempt yesterday.

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Finding acceptance in my own skin

I recently was dragged to the local pool by my mother. Now a little background. I'm TS. I've been non-op for over 15 years due to being massively overweight. I am FAT, balding, bad skin (psoriasis) don't do the makeup thing but do do nail varnish and I usually dress casually... stretch pants and a simple t-shirt. In spite of all this I 'pass' easily in the women's change room.

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A Wyld Conversation - Part 1

Hi all. You can just blame EOF, Lilith and others here for this, but I'm going to try getting in on the Universe creating thing. Not that I don't already, but this time it's going to be officially OPEN! I thought I'd post this blog, and perhaps others as I finish getting things ready, to see if there's any interest.

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Amazing amounts of progress

Had a peek at some of my old entries, and I find it almost impossible to believe how far I've come in such a short time. If I was writing my life as a fiction story, everyone would say "oh, come on now! That's just not realistic!" But its actually happening, and its been almost .... easy? Like all I really had to do was just .... decide to live, to be the real me, and everything would start falling into place? I'd pinch myself, but if this is a dream, I dont want to wake up....

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A Quiet Strength - Coming Soon!

Muse in Control

'A Quiet Strength' - Coming Soon!

A short while ago I placed a post here about a story idea that I was mulling around in my head of a single father and his child who is in a m2f transition. I wanted the story to focus more on the father's turmoil of dealing with a 'transitioning' child than with the child itself. I had a pretty good idea of how I wanted to start the story and where I wanted it to end...just no real idea of how to get from 'A' to 'B' so I 'put it out there' and people responded.

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Road to Myself 24: Catching Up

Road to Myself - 24: Catching Up
Annette MacGregor

It's been a while, and a LOT has happened. I even posted another segment in my slowly developing serial. But, that's not the topic of this blog. Life HAS been interesting. Yes, I think that's the right term, interesting.

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Amazing week so far...

Ok, i know that by saying things like the title is a way to have the gods notice you, but... What an amazing freaking week so far.
Yesterday, i went to the Y for the first time in...well forever it seems. The fitness guide, Nathaniel, was an absolute sweetheart, he understands where i'm going and aside from some pronoun trouble, he is great... and sorry Dani... he is cute too. so I'm doing that again Wednesday.

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Canada-bans-trans-people-from-flying

Canada-bans-trans-people-from-flying

In reading the blog about the child sent to a psychiatric ward in Germany, I saw the following. That was terrible but affects only one child. One is of course too much.

But the following will affect many.

Canada-bans-trans-people-from-flying

I do not know how the folks here who are transitioning handle Department of Homeland Security Pre-flight checks, but the ban in supposedly "liberal" Canada, must be frightening. Poor Dorothy and I assume others who may have to deal with this.

RAMI

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okay, so this is weird

Okay, so this is a little weird. I'm on my way home this morning, and the song "Lose Yourself" comes on, and I just start crying, tears running down my cheeks as the song plays. I mean, I know I'm a bit more emotional than normal, but I hadnt expected that. Anybody else have a song that makes them cry for no good reason?

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My problematic rewrite

If you recall I posted "'New Message from sexydater' - chapter 2". I wasn't satisfied with it so I'm rewriting and adding on to it, the only thing is, I'm blocked. Maybe someone can help.
Here are a few keywords I may use them, I might not, tell me what comes into your mind when you see the words:

TERRORIST, THUG, CAPTURE

Thanks for your help. ;=)

Cliff

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Adam Sandler's latest movie

The movie gets panned, deservedly so, a drag queen without the refinements? Does anything go in comedy, or just women? Some do it better, some worse.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/film/2012/jan/26/what-a-drag-cross...

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The Long Journey

Since I began to seriously began to address my different-ness in 2001 the good folks at this site have carried me through crisis after crisis; 5 hospitalizations for mental breakdown, a SRS operation, the loss of my family and everything I cared about in life. I was three days from living on the street before things slowly began to turn around. It took years, 10 of them to finally feel like I really wanted to live again, and that did not begin to happen until early last March.

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Signs of progress

Last night, I was thinking, and I realized how much progress I'm making in areas not directly related to my gender issue. For example, I'm getting better at doing the day-to-day routine, taking care of the things that need to be taken as routine. I've got some ways to go, but I'm doing better at this.

The other big thing is dealing with my flashbacks. Like the other night, I was starting to have one, and suddenly, I "heard" a voice telling me "Dorothy, you dont need to go there. Dont you understand? You beat him. He's gone, and you're still standing. You won!"

Woo Hoo! :D

Woo-Hoo! :D

I have been here at BC|TC for slightly longer than 12 weeks and have over 2000 'Kudos' for my stories...to me that's a really big deal and I appreciate them! I only hope to continue to produce stories that people here want to read.

Thanks!
Anon Allsop

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Temporary suspension

I don't know how many people are looking towards the next pinkilicios birthday and I hate to do this: But the continuation will probably be delayed further.

I am about to close on a house so that means moving after a few repairs get done (like rewiring the place because someone stole the copper wires). I would pull the story down, but don't see the point in that.

Here's to more prolific writing in a new place: hopefully one more Gatorade bottle friendly!!!

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Negative Comments and their effects on Authors

I am a new member here, but have been a reader for some time. I recently wrote PRIVATELY to an author here. She alerted me to the number of negative comments she had received for one particular story and we discussed the pain such negativity can cause in the mind of the writer. Can I make a suggestion? There is a management tool called the 'Praise Sandwich' in which the first paragraph is something positive or praise-worthy; the second and third (if necessary) can be something negative or critical, and the final paragraph again something positive.

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Earlier Than Expected, Yay!!

I bought and received some Girl Scout Cookies today, two boxes of Thin Mints. On Friday I expect to buy a box of Smores. The girl didn't have any Smores available.

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Okay, a question for you all

Just a question about something that I was thinking of writing about.

Say you had transitioned at a young age, and by 18 had the SRS and was living as a woman. A few years down the road you're married to a wonderful man and have adopted. (Okay,I know some states this may be hard, but it's just a question)

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Looking for two more stories

Story one: A boy dressing as a girl, living with a step mom and father who seem to not care, going to a bad school with gangs and one of the gang leaders takes a shine to her. I don't think it was finished though.

The second one is where a boy's Granny dies and she leaves him a mini cooper that is pink and a not about his grandpa being a cross dresser.

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Ragnarok Rising letdown & Dark Realms story


Ragnarok Rising Letdown


As much as I hate to do this. I need to step back from Ragnarok Rising for a while. I do still plan on finishing the final story, but I've lost some of my enthusiasm for the story and I need to take a break so I can return to it with a fresh perspective.

But that doesn't mean I won't be writing. Far from it. In fact, I contacted EnemyofFun last night about writing in his Dark Realms Universe and he's agreed to let me write on a 'new' type of Unseen or 'monster'.

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The Family Girl #027: Of Shakespeare and Private Messages

The Family Girl Blogs
(aka "The New Working Girl Blogs")

Blog #27: Of Shakespeare and Private Messages

To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link:
http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

I got a pleasant private message early this morning, which I read before my usual early Saturday morning jog (sometimes bicycle ride), from someone named Kate, and she wanted to talk about some of the stuff I wrote.

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a question of Identity

Well, my little link about TG kids seems to have produced some interesting responses, the one everyone is talking about is the person who seems to feel disappointed that we are not all a bunch of sissy masochists. In honor of him, I wanted to produce a list of questions that would generate some anecdotal evidence that we who are transgendered actually do exist, and my own answers.

1: When did you first notice a gender variance in yourself? My memories are hazy, but my best recollection puts it just before my sexual assault, so that would be about 7 years old.

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Aunt Roe's last gift

After a lot of conniving double-handed back stabbing that included a lot of misdirection and lying, I am saddened to announce that my mother did not steal my inheritance. She tried her best to do so, with the truth of what she was doing coming to me in the end. She did things like tell the insurance company she was my aunt's only surviving near relative (I guess nephews don't count as near relatives, but besides, my Aunt also has a surviving older brother).

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One reason why stories die (and what to do about it)

I've been writing for a long time, and I'm not saying that I'm great at it... I think I'm pretty good for a sandlot player, but definitely not in the big leagues.

However, there are a few things I've learned, and one biggie is the difference between situations and stories.

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Masks

A thought I had several decades ago, and has been reiterated more than once here is the idea of wearing a mask. Nothing physical, just the emotional face you show people under different circumstances. We always have one on. Sometimes they are thinner than other times, but we always wear it. I think couples occasionally drop them, but even then it is rare.

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The Stars and Stripes Anthem

Somebody sent me a link to You Tube it was group of kids singing the Stars and Stripes and very well I might add.

Later on in the evening I thought that the situation in which the Anthem was written was funny.

Now don`t get me wrong I`ve nothing against the USA and have served alongside US troops when I was in the Army.

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Old style writing tips from William Safire (timeless)

Found this blast of writing rules from the past at Lists of Note

Late-1979, New York Times columnist William Safire compiled a list of "Fumblerules of Grammar" – rules of writing, all of which are humorously self-contradictory – and published them in his popular column, "On Language." Those 36 fumblerules can be seen below, along with another 18 that later featured in Safire's book, Fumblerules: A Lighthearted Guide to Grammar and Good Usage.

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Who I am, and why my avatar name.

This is my first entry. There is a lot about using BCTS I don't know, I will try to learn over time.

Allow me to introduce myself. Over time I will talk about me, then branch out. I will try my hand at fictional writing eventually, I already do a lot of writing of a different nature, text books and electronics. I am in my mid 50's.

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Dilation school

Ok, girls take out a pen and paper and be sure to jot down notes. Test to follow.

So, I spent a delightful morning at the Gyno docs while she taught he how I might get myself out of my pruned up Vagina problem. You see, I have been a bad little girl and stopped dilating about 2 years ago, and now I don't think a rabbit could do me.

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I give up!

I'm sorry y'all, but there won't be a Wild Magic chapter today-I've been working on it, but I have less than a page done. I'm very sorry, and I hope to have the next chapter in the morning.

I'm advertising for a trade-I've tried tying her down, shackeling her ankle, but she seems to like it. Somebody swap Muses with me!

Wren

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02) Atlantia - New Story: Want Illustrator

OK, so while OYH's hiatus will continue for a bit longer, a new character has grabbed my attention and wants to be heard.

This character will be a cop from a town called Atlantia, which doesn't exist. Atlantia is a hidden town of magic and superpowers that once you've entered, you cannot leave. It was founded by refugees from Atlantis, whose history according to my story might be a little different to what you're used to.

Why is "Transgender" wrong?

Recently, while reading the comments on someone's blog post, I notices that somebody was talking about hating the term 'transgender'. I realize that it's used as an umbrella term, but that's how I think of myself. Apparently, it's politically incorrect or insensitive to use that term, though.

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I was the house servant

Our life experiences give us all sorts of story ideas. It is just amazing.

Tonight I watched, "The Help", and I have no doubts in my mind that if the story is not literally true, it is in substance. Oddly, it took me back to my time with my family, and as I watched it, I realized that I had about the same status in my home as one of "them coloreds", and when they could no longer use me, I was fired. It was a dark, bleak realization but now I feel empowered.

Through the years, I have talked to other T folk who related the same sort of thing to me, it is not an uncommon experience

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Update on "The Dream"

Hey everyone,

Sorry it has been quite some time since I have posted anything.

My muse seems to have taken a vacation (without my approval), I have some written but as soon as I can find the right thought process I will continue.

Thank you all for being patient and I will continue Terri's events

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out of bad, good

Well, something good came out of the comment my mom made at breakfast. I got a very supportive comment from my brother when I posted about it on face book, and here it is:

"To become something new the old must pass away. This is not really a bad thing. Those of us who love you, loved you as who you were, as who you are, and as who you will be. From your point of view "The Todd is dead, long live the Dot"."

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