My Super Secret Life…Diamond-8.
Chapter 8
And there’s all these people together either dating or married and stuff and I’m kind of feeling left out seeing how happy everyone is and everything together.
“Not that I’d have an idea of how to really be with anyone or anything even if I met someone.”
Yes…yes I’m talking to myself because you do that when you’re alone so much.
Alone, in a new life and way different body and things it’s still the same…hurt and lonely and that makes me feel all fat and ugly and what’s the point and that’s when it hits me.
I get my car and drive around after using my debit card to pay for the stuff at the beach and tip the valet guy five dollars. I’m driving and really trying to not go into a drive thru and just…It’s like this hurt that kind of sinks into that craving rush you get when you ear something good.
That something you like’s rush is what you use to replace the empty spot inside that I’m trying to fill.
I know all of this and yet.
