It's been years coming but lately I seem to subconsciously be on the prowl for a man to plow me. Would I do blow jobs? Come to think of it... Does that mean I was always a latent homosexual, or have the hormones finally done their job on me. My only worry now is that I do not wind up with some sort of sexually transmitted disease. Questions, questions.

Preaching to the choir here... Women in western culture can basically wear anything that is not too revealing. On the other hand men who wear women's clothes, it's not good.

I really like stockings and garter belts (Suspender belts in the UK), and I have several variations of them. Anytime I wear them it must be in secret or heavily concealed.

THIS PISSES ME OFF !!!

I re-read Butterscotch on Kindle and loved it. Perhaps I read it the first time on BCTS years ago? It was quite entertaining and winsome. Things do not often turn out so well for folk like us but a bit of fantasy is quite welcome. I'd recommend this to anyone.

I never did find a way to leave a review on Amazon.

Gwen

While scratching away, vainly trying to write something intelligent, compelling and interesting, it comes to me that as far as TG, GID and all that, it feels like I've "Been there and done that". This is no reflection at all on the experience of anyone else. I've had over 70 years to think about, theorize and experience the whole of it, and as soon as I could took the plunge trying to make it all real. In some ways I had great success and in others it was disastrous. I'm sure that my suffering is typical of the usual T person, so I won't further traumatize you.

Another one of my Bimbo questions. What is the difference between Doppler Press and Kindle?

I may read more than most people, and much of it is at BCTS. Most of the stories I read are good to excellent. If there is one suggestion that I would make to almost all authors, it would be to be more descriptive in their writing. There is a balance between that and wordiness and I am not sure that I know where that is. I would make the same criticism of my own writing.

Gwen

Dreams lately are perhaps impossible to separate from wakefulness. This morning I dreamed about writing a short story that would undoubtedly draw fire from some, or many, or even most. It would make use of every thing I can remember of all disciplines religious, scientific, mystical, and things without names. I don't know if it would include TG content because I haven't written it yet, still trying to recover from the dream, perhaps nightmare. I don't know if I can publish something here and not allow comments? I won't ask if anyone wants to read this one.

I once read a story about a recently graduated co-ed that took up a job House Sitting along the California Coast, Perhaps Big Sur??? It was an uber modern house set part way up a hill near the Pacific Ocean. In one part of the house was an extremely automated gym with all sorts of exercise machines. The rest of the mansion was uber modern and controlled by an AI, I think.

If an author puts something on Kindle, getting to it to read it is simple. Patreon on the other hand is very difficult for me and I usually just give up. Does Patreon Pay more? Is Amazon too difficult for Authors? For me if a story is offered on Patreon, it might as well have gone down a black hole.

Gwen

At odd times there are two vertical lines on my monitor screen to the right of the centerline. They are a very minor inconvenience. I am just wondering if they come from my own Video card, BCTS or some sort of source elsewhere on the internet. I have tried to restart but they are still there.

My computer is an aged (7+ years) HP wide screen all in one that uses an INTEL core i5 processor with an Nvidia video card inside. It is running Win 11. I plan to use it as long as it keeps running. I do text and internet with no games.

I was preparing to re-read Warrior of Batuk, and in the notes before the beginning, the editor said to use a certain font in MS Word. I tried to cut and paste Chap. 1&2 in an open document in MS word, and as I had expected, it did not happen. We all know that I should be on a leash when on the computer. Is there some secret that I missed and is it worth the effort?

Trying to write effectively after a long period of absence is so hard right now. I can only hope that it gets better. Today, while reading another's work, it was clear that they had "missed a spot". I'll be even more alert to this weakness in both my own work, and in the work of others. As an example; when something happens to transform a man into a woman, perhaps it should follow that his brain and thought patterns should change too? Or perhaps the writer could make it clear that his change was merely superficial?

Wearing stockings, is there a good way to stop your feet from sliding around in your shoes? I don't usually wear any leg coverings because my whole body is almost completely hairless. Today I was playing and noticed that my feet were sliding round in my shoes.

Over the last fortnight, I've been gathering my resources, buy men's clothing, and making all sorts of decisions in a very deliberate way. Life is really complicated and where possible I intend to live as a man as far as that is possible. I idea of living as a recluse in the deep woods keeps passing through my head. I have no idea what my life will look like in the future.

I wouldn't call myself homosexual having never had willing penetrative intercourse other than anal rape. Many years later I look back at the three boys who did it and hope that they repented and had good lives. When it happened, the victim was blamed as much as the assailants. The PTSD and Psychologists who drove surgical intervention were as much at fault as I am. Lately I am just sure that I would have done fine as a crossdresser. I did not know it at the time but the peculiarities of law mean that if I had not started living as a woman, I might be living in a tend or even dead.