Girlhood

Girlhood that’s what I want.
Womanhood that’s what I need.
Sadness overcomes me and sometimes has me beat.
Joyful I think about tenderness and beauty.
Warm and yellow sunflowers I feel in my heart my dear cutie.
An endless rainbow of hope as the sun rises in my heart.
Oh, how can the world sometimes be oh so dark?
Ghosts of the past come and haunt me on occasion.
I don’t need any more persuasion because I know what I want and know who I am.

Girlhood, that’s what I need.
Destiny, can’t you hear me plead?
However, I should not despair.
There is a glimmer of hope and I know that hope can be rare.
The past is the past, what happened cannot be undone.
My heart is full of love and my spirits are high.
Why did we have to say goodbye?

Girlhood, that’s what I want.
My heart screams for this every minute, my soul cannot rest.
I know deep in my heart you exist and are strong and are simply the best.
You are fully alive and help me express my authentic self.
Like a warm ray of sunshine on a spring morning, it gently caresses me.
But beauty is not everything there is also smarts, wit, caring, and reason.
That’s what I want, that’s who I am and always have been.
The answers are inside of me I know this for sure.
Oh, girlhood where have you been, where is my cure?

Girlhood, that’s what I want, you have always been my desire.
My soul is unrestful, my heart is on fire.
Girlhood, that’s what I want, why did you leave me in a valley of tears?
Left me all alone to face my terrible and horrifying fears.
I mastered them well but a monster appeared.
The monster hijacked my body and tried to hijack my brain.
I’m in for the fight of my life that is clear and I have to endure this pain.
But it cannot claw at my heart and my soul because it is protected by everlasting love, no room for fear.
Love that is eternal and will outlast time.
Love that is everywhere and cannot be destroyed.
Love that fills my body and heals a gaping void.

Girlhood, that’s what I want, why did you leave me in the dark and before I could get to know you?
Girlhood, that’s what I want and I miss you so much.
Girlhood. I love you so much and always will.
I miss you every day especially when everything is still.
Girlhood, you are gentle, tender, soft and kind.
I will always be yours and you will always be mine.

Anna Olivia