When our lips parted I was crying again, not from sadness or anger this time, but because I was happy that she felt the same way about me.

“What's wrong, Sam? Why are you crying?” Jess asked me.

“Nothing is wrong, Jess. I’m just happy you feel the same way about me. Is it true that no matter what I choose to do that won't change?”

“Yes it is, gender was never a big deal for me, what matters for me is the person itself. Do you believe in love at first sight?”

“I do, Jess. When I first saw you, I think I fell for you that very same moment.” I said blushing.

“So did I Sam, and at that time I did think you were a girl. When I found out you were a boy my feelings for you didn't change.”

“You did seem angry though.” I said.

“I was but after we talked I saw that you didn't lie to me. It was all my own misunderstanding.”

“Mom?”

“Yes, sweety?”

“What would you think if I decided to be a girl?” I asked her.

“I would love you the same way sweety.” She affirmed and hugged me.

“Good, because I do want to live a normal healthy life.” I finally said.

“Are you sure about that, sweety?” She asked.

I thought for a moment and said. “Yes, its not like I never thought about it before.”

“WHAT?” All three women said at the same time.

After a few minutes of an awkward silence mom said. “You mean you though about it before?”

“Yes. It just came back to me. I used to think that all the time.” I admitted. “Just not since....” and I broke down crying.

“It's okay, sweety. I'm here. You can tell us.” She said holding me.

“No I can't, you'll hate me if I do.” I said in tears.

“Look at me, sweety. You are my child and there is no way I could ever hate you. I will always love you.” She said looking deeply into my eyes.

“Do you promise?”

“Of course I do.”

“I didn't think about it since dad died because he died because of me.” I said crying.

“No, sweety. He died in a car accident. It was not your fault.” She said.

“No, mom, it was my fault. That day I was alone at home and I was trying out some of your clothes when he got home and saw me dressed up. He kept yelling at me and said he would go out for a drive and that I better be out of those closes when he came back or he would spank me. I changed back to my clothes and put all your things back. I went to my room and started to cry. A few hours later we got the news that dad died and it was all my fault. If it wasn't for me he would have never gone out and be still alive.”

“Oh sweety, Why didn't you tell me? I knew you tried on my clothes sometimes but I thought it was a phase, when you stopped I thought I was right. And your fathers death was not your fault, you can't blame yourself for his actions.” She said holding me tightly

“Because I thought you would hate me. When he died I promised myself that I would be the best boy I could be and make him proud, but I was never good at that and I thought that when puberty started I would became a better boy, one that would make dad proud.”

“That's not true. You are a great boy.” Steph said.

“It isn't? Steph, I know you always saw me like a sister, and I secretly loved it. When you dressed me up in that cheerleader uniform was the only time I dressed up since dad died and It was because you wanted me to do it for Halloween. I thought that it wouldn't hurt to do it just that once. I was so conflicted then, I did want to do it, but also I was ashamed of myself for wanting it so badly. I think that's why I was so hurt when those pictures came out.”

“I'm sooooooo sorry my brother did that to you, Sam. You didn't deserve that.” Steph said crying.

“It was not your fault, Steph. I should have known you would never do that to me.” I said crying too and we hugged.

“Life is strange, you know?” I said a few minutes later.

“How so?” Jess asked me.

“I guess I was never meant to be a boy. I tried to because of dad even though I was conflicted about it. In the end I guess the decision was made for me and I don't know if I would ever be able to make a choice it if all this didn't happen to me.”

“Are you sure about it, sweety?” Mom asked me.

“Yes mom, its the only way I'll ever have a normal, healthy and hopefully happy life. I hope it doesn't change how you guys feel about me.”

“No way, Sam.” Jess said and gave me a gentle kiss on my lips.

“I will always love you, sweety.” Mom said. “I loved you as a son and I will love you as a daughter.” She said and hugged me.

“I think it might change a bit.” Steph said.

“What?” I asked.

“Now we do get to be like sisters.” She said and giggled.

“Oh, I guess you are right.” I said.

“You will always be my best friend, Sam. I'll always be there for you.” Steph said hugging me.

“T..thank you guys.” I said trying to hold back the tears.

"You know it will not be easy, right? There are a lot of people that won't understand you and many will give you a hard time because of it." Mom said.

"I know mom, but I think that with you guys supporting me I'll be able to cope with it." I said and grabbed Jess and Seph's hands.

My stomach choose that moment to growl loudly and that set us all in a giggle fit. “I guess someone is hungry.” Mom said. “I’ll see if I can get the nurse to bring you dinner.”

“Thanks mom. I feel like I didn’t eat since yesterday.”

“That’s because you didn’t, silly.” Jess said playfully slapping me on the arm.