I just want to talk for a minute on girl names and sissy’s kinda scolding, kinda.

It really never entered my little boy / girl head when I was doing my girl stuff at the beginning, walking around the house in my sisters little girl Mary Janes or playing with mom’s lipstick it never entered my mind at that time being referenced as a girl in anyway let alone being called a girls name I was just enjoying the few girl items I could play with, it all started when mom started exploring my girl side of course a lot of being called sweetie and slowly led down the path of girl references which I learned to like and love.

As all things it started with little sayings like you would make a pretty little girl while I was holding mom’s purse at the store or getting mom’s purse at home and handing it to her while she would say your such a girl and so on, mom really enjoyed it and I didn’t mind it caught me a little off guard at the beginning and later starting to like it too.

One night while mom was tucking me in she asked me, sweetie would it be ok if I just called you sissy all the time even when your dressed and just being a boy I would really love that, what do you think about that and that’s ok if it’s too weird, but mom had this all worked out as mom was talking to me she was applying my nightly lipstick to kiss my Barbie doll her talk ended just as she was done with my lipstick, I felt so girly at that moment I practically yelled it out I would love that mom my inner girl just couldn’t resist I was in full girl mode at that moment that was definitely the girl in me saying that, if mom would have said I want you to carry your doll too in boy mode I would have said yes too I was so caught up in the moment.

I also was thinking did I just say that, really and mom just had that big smile on her face knowing how easy that was and of course just loving every minute of it, oh well I was pretty happy so I really didn’t mind.

Mom pretty much was very discreet only really calling me sissy when nobody could really tell what mom was saying when I was in boy mode until one day out with mom we stop at a fast food place and mom asked me what would I like, I’m not sure what I was doing probably looking at something and really not paying attention, mom asked a second time still I guess I didn’t answer and then the third time mom blurted out sissy what would you like, we’ll that I heard loud and clear it totally floored me caught me so off guard I couldn’t even look around to see if anyone was looking I’m sure there were a few, I looked up at mom and she was wearing that no nonsense look.

I really felt like crying and running away just anywhere but here, I felt horrible I was just clinging to mom really not knowing what to do, I didn’t want to say a thing mom probably picked up on that and ordered for me, after that I was much more attentive to mom and that brought us even closer in a mother daughter relationship.