Losing Myself - Becoming Myself

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I had a dream last night. It was so strange. There were characters from Netflix's The Travelers in it.

The dream felt a bit like the story "Maiden by Decree." I was in a church, waiting to be coronated as queen into my group. And one of the guys I had been close to reached out to touch me playfully. But the protocol of being a princess and queen demanded that I not be touched without special permission. I had actually thought it all through before I entered the church. I new that I had to accept fully who I was. It was so strange, because I was thinking in both directions. It was all something like the SCA, but it was also very real and serious.

And more so, I had transitioned into a full female body an I did not even think or feel I had never been anything else. (I'm starting to have more dreams like that.) I never expected to get to that point in my transition.

Anyway, my friend had touched me twice and I had to warn him that if he did it again, he would be expelled from the group. He could not understand that things had switched over from me being a "amab" buddy to a true woman.

Odd, something like that happened right after I transitioned. My brother could not understand that I was no longer up for or able to do rough and tumble play. Funny thing is I never had been that way. That was our other brother. He just does not remember me as a child.

Anyway, the dream ended when I was going up for my coronation. And I was feeling so complete. I awoke feeling a bit lost.

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Darn Stroke

took my memory. Are you the same Cassie that lives in or near Dallas?

Yes, this is me

I moved to Colorado Springs in Feb-2019 and got lost in a bad depression. It took several TIAs a few months back to get me moving again. Nothing like feeling like I had lost my mind to bring me back to myself.