Companion

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Companion


You sent me away without a word
but the words we already spoke
told me all I need to know

Dismissed and abandoned
no longer feeling loved
even though we grew up together

You were my hero I worshipped you
and now here am without you
You were the one I look up to
And now it's just you looking down

You sent me a card without signing it
but the note inside the card
told me all I need to know

No longer worth looking out for
no longer feeling I belong
even though we shared a home together

I was your biggest fan I adored you
now there you are without me
I was the one who needed you
But it seems you're just fine without me

Help me understand
Please answer the question
I thought I was doing okay
What did I do
and whom have I become
That makes me unloveable today?

You sent me song without a tune
but the song was the same
as any other you sang

Neglected and confused
no longer feeling human
even though we shared a heart together

When I was your brother I loved you
but now that I'm your sister you don't love me
I was a son, a father, a nephew
but it seems that you no longer see me as me

I thought we'd be together forever
Instead of a bond
you celebrate the divide

Downcast and alone
no longer feeling at home
even though we shared a life together

You were my family I needed you
but not now the way I am today.
I was your friend, from then until the end
It wasn't I but you who chose to walk away.

I find my strength
in the person I've become
even though you're no longer beside me
And even set apart
I'm no longer alone
I keep company with the companion inside me

Words and music
by Andrea Lena DiMaggio

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NoraAdrienne's picture

That was beautiful... sad and poignant. You have such a wonderful way with words.

Poignant,

And it resonates on many levels with me too. Thank you 'Drea, for sharing that with us....

- Jay xx


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Companion

littlerocksilver's picture

Tragic, but too real. I've seen it said here too many times to know it's not close to the truth. Still, my siblings have learned much over the years. There might have been acceptance, but we will probably never know.

Portia

Portia

i fear this will be my fate too

i have the same issue with my brother, and i know i will probably lose him when i transition. it hurts like heck.

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Dear Andrea

Thank you. Belle

Drea...sweet heart...

What a lovely and very haunting song. I don't know of anybody who hasn't 'lost' someone in their life with things said unsaid and things done or not done. You never cease to amaze me with your wonderful gift of being able to speak so eloquently for the rest of us.

Mea the Magnificent