Very nice visit with one of the writers from BCTS and his lovely wife last week. We met at the Cowboy Hall of Fame at OKC. Several cowgirls are tour guides there. I never saw a cowgirl who wasn't beautiful. Is there a regulation or law or something? The place has grown since the sixties and a whole lot of walking is involved. My acquaintances were doing okay as we toured a dozen rooms, exhibits etc, I wasn't, as my hips started locking up.

This was something new for me, hips that is not exhibits. I'll explain. Because of who and what I am and the hormones I'm taking my doctors believed a lot of my problems were due to blood clots or clogged arteries. I love all my doctors and medical staff but knew they were wrong. I've had enough ultra sounds done to pay for a new car if money was going that direction. The good part, they couldn't find what they were looking for. The really good part is I got to ask the technicians if it was a boy or girl every time.

Ladies, if one is trans, your medical team might develop tunnel vision and not be able to think outside the box. You're the one living that life whether you chose to or had to because you were driven. I knew I didn't have blood clots or clogged arteries and after all the ultra sound examinations my doctors should have also. But.... This old farm girl was thinking low grade infection. My docs took several blood tests and ruled it out. I still believed it was an infection and began self medication. I'm trans, a farm girl, I self medicate, have the needles, hormones, etc. Adding other meds is no problem. Farm girl, remember?

Only problem, I wasn't touching what was wrong and some of those shots hurt like hell. Lots of research and I ran across an article describing me perfectly. Nothing I was doing was going to touch what I had. I contacted a private physician. After an examination and reading the research I had downloaded along with treatment he agreed. It's really rare, non contagious, but a killer if left untreated. Luckily it may be treated. I'm going to be taking meds for the next three months to kill this thing. I said it can be treated but it isn't quick and easy.

Now back to the hips locking up. There is a problem with killing off any infection too quickly no matter what one has. It's called toxic poisoning from the body having to flush out the bacteria, virus, fungus, even cancer if that is what one has. If the cure is too quick, the patient can't flush it quick enough and they will die.

Keep in mind farm girl and a lifetime of treating livestock and fowl. The past couple weeks I've been passing a lot of blood. No biggie, I've done that almost every month like clock work with PMS, even if that birth certificate has M. My hips and virtually every single joint is screaming in pain as what I have is killed and has to be flushed. Last night was a bitch. Good thing my cat loves me. I probably hugged Mindy a little tighter than she likes.

Ladies, if one is trans, one's doctor may not have the wider understanding needed if problems arise. They read the medical journals on trans and follow the thinking in a linear concept like a train track. We are still human despite a lot of others debating that idea. Things can and do go wrong outside the scope of the definition medical tries to put on us.

Remember my story about meeting the one in ten thousand females we all write about? The female who walks into a room and every male and female there turns to stare? Doctors are kinda the same. Most don't want to guess outside the medical descriptions. Lawsuits and other things keeps them following the text books. I lost a mother in law, a beautiful wife, my soul mate, and an aunt and two uncles to cancer because the doctors didn't diagnose the cancer at the beginning. We like to think they are infallible but they are only human the same as us. In my case, my gut feeling was better.
Hugs People, believe in yourself.
Barb
Life is a gift, don't lose it wishing you had done something.