I have not written much recently. This is partly due to being unhappy at work. I just get home, eat go to the local pool to exercise ( my diabetes is getting out of control, so I must exercise.) Then come home watch TV and sleep. Rinse and repeat.
One of the reasons I write is to express my feminine side. I still don't know if I am really trans or not. I grew up wishing I was a girl. I was 3 or 4 when I asked why I was not a girl. When I dress now, there is no sexual thrill, just a sense of relief. When I am "made up" I just feel that I am looking at the real me.
Sophie Mary Wilson CBE FRS FREng DistFBCS was born Roger Wilson; June 1957.
Wilson underwent surgery and transitioned in 1994.
She is an English computer scientist, a co-designer of the Instruction Set for the ARM architecture. Wilson first designed a microcomputer during a break from studies at Selwyn College, Cambridge.
ARM processors are used in light, portable, battery-powered devices, including smartphones, laptops, and tablet computers,
In the UK the trial of the murder of a poor, shy trans girl was concluded recently.
Two seemingly normal 15-year-olds with no previous convictions planned to murder Brianna in February this year.
The whole story is so sad, it brings a tear to your eye when you read it. It does make you wonder what hope there is for humanity when there are children around like this.
I watched the latest Dr. Who. Donna Noble's daughter was called a boy's name by a group of boys on bikes as they rode by. I thought WHAT?
It is cleared up later as you realise she is trans. I watched a program later where Yasmin Finney said it brought back bad memories about being "dead named".
It was a fun episode. Much better than those crap, poorly written ones Jodie Whittaker was forced to do. Mind you, David Tennant is my favorite Dr. Who, with Tom Baker in close second.
I have recently spent more time as Leeanna in public. I never got a hostile or second glace, apart from some guy checking out my legs when the wind lifted my dress above the knee.
I learned most people will pass you by as they are not interested. I spent a few days on the Essex coast with a very kind gentleman who has been encouraging me to spend more time as my other self. Over the weekend I spent longer as Leeanna than I have ever before.
Thank you to all those who left kudos for my last story. "A Space Oddity - Houston I have a problem".
That was the first time I had over 100 kudos for a story since "Taken by the Grey Folk" in March.
I kind of have a feel for what goes down well on some of the different sites I submit stories on nowadays. On Bigcloset, my highest-rated stories were the first part of Surgeon's Lodger, The Assult, with The Substitute Housewife Part 1, and Seven Years as a Wife being the top two.
Some of those had sex in the stories, but most did not.
As usual, trans women get the blame in the comments. When Men who menstruate are trans men who have not had a hysterectomy will menstruate. That's how you have men menstruate and have babies. Also "chestfeeding" instead of breastfeeding is for the benefit of trans men.
Trans women are blamed for that too.
Each year, fashion magazine Vogue compiles a list of 25 women who "define – and redefine – Britain in 2023".
This year's list became the subject of debate on Friday's Breakfast with Stephen and Anne when the two hosts welcomed author Suzan Holder and co-founder of the Together Association, Alan Miller, onto the show.
Among the women who were honoured in the list - which included the likes of Penny Mordaunt, Naga Munchetty and Jodie Comer - was trans cyclist Emily Bridges.
For those who are unfamiliar Fa'afafine is the Samoan 3rd gender.
When I first read about fa'afafine, The article said families that had all boys would choose one to raise as a girl to help in the home and look after the parents in old age.
I wrote a story called The Fa'afafine Bill set on an alternative earth. One comment said that it was stupid premiss as men could do the same jobs as women without being women.
This is probably nonsense, but it is a theory I had not heard about trans folk. This is about the effect of pollution on gender.
Recent evidence indicates that phthalates from plastic and polychlorinated biphenyls (PCBs) are one of many factors predicting gender dysphoria, particularly in the case of male-to-female transgenders.
Polluted groundwater yields ambiguous genitalia for vulnerable species. The modern human environment is replete with substances that mimic sex hormones. Could these chemicals play a role in contemporary gender fluidity?
Just came back from a short break with my mother. She is 85 now and has just lost her partner. I want to spend as much time with her as I can.
I never got much "Leeanna" time, as one of my sons stayed for a few nights. So last night I got a chance to try out a wig that my mother helped me pick. Long gone are the days my own hair sufficed. The dreaded testosterone has thinned my own hair too much to convince anyone.
She insisted it had to have a fringe. I think she was right.
A good friend of mine died a few days ago. He was at a funeral and collapsed. He would not go in the ambulance and died later that day at home. I used to see hime several times a week. I only heard today.
We lost touch during covid and I owed him and his wife a meal. I kept promising myself I would call him and arrange it. Life, work, and family just got in the way. I thought I'd spoken to him just last month, but when I looked at my phone log it was late December.
I always assumed, perhaps incorrectly, that the majority of transgender folk were MTF and that there were very few FTM.
This article says.
NHS England, 10 years ago there were just under 250 referrals, most of them boys, to the Gender Identity Development Service (Gids), run by the Tavistock and Portman NHS Foundation Trust in London.
I know this divides trans women. This is just my take on the problem.
The whole thing about trans women is sport is too complex. Sports people are very competitive and will complain about the tiniest thing they think is unfair.
What is a trans woman? Someone that has had full surgery, has the same hormone levels as the average woman and has not gone through male puberty. Or a fully intact male that has no intention of taking hormones and having surgery?
I have just written a short story about trans women developing an "ability".
In the story I reference the anti-trans laws that have been or are being passed in the USA. I blamed the Republicans. I am from the UK. Our politics are hard to grasp sometimes, but I have no idea how laws are passed in the USA.
I took my mother away on holiday for a few days. Since coming out to her 10 months ago she has been very accepting.
She is trying to encourage me to go out as "Michelle". That is what she would have called me if I had been born the person I have always dreamed of being.
We went for a little walk together and I spent the evening with her as her daughter. These little oasis of happiness, parental love and acceptance keep me going for through times when I am forced to be the me the world and family need me to be.
Last year I wrote a story about a trans woman helping a man with a yearning to be a woman. He was married the whole 9 yards, but he had secretly always wanted to be a woman.
Someone using chatGPT got it to write a sissy maid story. It was posted on Fictionmania today. It is a little bland but that may be due to the tiny amount of direction it was given.
With seemingly perfect timing, just after the SNP passed a Scottish version of the Gender Recognition Reform bill by 86 votes to 39, the story of Isla Bryson reared its ugly head.
Isla Bryson or Adam Graham, as he was known when he committed two rapes. Claimed to be transgender after he was arrested (he was living full time as a man then).
I read an article by a "palliative care nurse" about the regrets people have when they die.
Many of them ring very true with me, and I'll guess many of you.
I Wish I’d Lived a Life True to Myself, Not the Life Others Expected of Me
We all know this one. Many of you are a lot braver than me and are true to yourself, however long it took
I went away for my last "fishing trip" of the year this weekend. I do actually go fishing, but the main reason I go is to have time as Leeanna. The memories I have let me cope with not being who I want to be.
After my mother helping me and pushing me the last time. She wanted us to go into the bar on the site. I refused. I just went for a short walk in the dark with her. She told me not to wear red lipstick and keep my makeup understated. She also told me not to use the red wig I have.
I went for a plain look. I just wanted to look like an older lady out for a walk.
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