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For nearly the past month, my cat had been very sick. He had lost too much weight too fast. This past tuesday I made the decision, after his recent treatment wasn't working, to change his follow-up check up to something that I never wanted but had to so he wouldn't have to suffer. Throughout this past week he seemed to sense that I was very upset about something and did his best to stay by my side despite how weak he became.
I was very lucky too have him in my life for well over fourteen years, I love him dearly. It tore my heart out when, yesterday, I took him to the vet for the final time. He past away on April. 8 approx 4:15pm (central)
My apartment feels empty without him and I keep wanting to reach for him to hug him despite knowing he isn't here anymore. He was my greatest friend who loved and accepted me completely. I don't know what to do with myself now that I'm alone now. I feel aimless.
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I’m sorry for your loss losing a pet you have had for a decade is hard.
hugs :)
Michelle SidheElf Amaianna
So very sorry ...
It can be one of the hardest things we ever have to do, to help them put their paws on the Rainbow Bridge.
May all beings be happy,
May all beings be free of pain,
May all beings be healthy.
May all beings be Loved, in this World, and in the Next.
Sometimes...
Sometimes I feel a cat land on the bed
and I reach for a round little head
that isn't there.
Sometimes I hear a doggy sigh
that always gives me a smile
for no reason.
Spirits of furry love we remember,
our hearts we surrendered
for always.
Hugs,
Erin
= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.
Erin is right
If you believe in a life after this, then you must know they live on as we do. I have often felt four little paws climb over me in bed to get as Tabatha would do to her favoured sleeping position. After our old dog Dellie past I would still feel at times an invisible dog jumped up onto the bed and feel her as she settled against my bum as she often did. I knew if I reached out there would be no cat of dog their, but at times it did not stop me all the same.
Your cat is not in pain anymore. What you did is hardest and most loving thing when the time comes we can do for them to take away their pain. And when the time comes and you feel you can, you can give another cat the love you gave to your old friend.
Sophie, thinking of you.
I don't know if there is a life past this...
I don't believe that there is one. Do we truly deserve it?
But for them, there must be. They do deserve it, to the last one.
I am so sorry for your loss
huggles
Rainbow bridge
A must read for those who've lost a fur baby. https://petheavencemetery.com/the-rainbow-bridge-poem/
Hugs
Patricia
Happiness is being all dressed up and HAVING some place to go.
Semper in femineo gerunt
We were sad
To lose a much loved cat but after a time couldn’t bear an empty home so we got a pair of kittens from a farm and they have been a great joy to us. We often relate tales of our dear departed cat to them.
Glenda Ericsson
-hugs- :/
I have a friend who refuses to get a pet because they don't believe they can handle the later loss. And it hurts, I miss all of mine who have traveled on almost every single day in some small (or large) way. Yet I treasure every moment we had together, each so different and unique in personality and quirks from the rest. So sorry to hear of your loss, you did the bravest and kindest thing possible.
Huggers!
If there's a book that you want to read, but it hasn't been written yet, then you must write it.”
― Toni Morrison
Thank you everyone!
I very much appreciate all the kind words and well-wishes that you've all sent to me.
I know that one day I'll be able to move on, but, it hurts so much because even though it was a mercy, I was the one who made that decision.
Again, thank you all.
The reason we never stop missing them, grieving them ...
... is that Love does not come with an 'expiration date'.
Today my congregation was doing community-service crafts projects. Sandwiches, paracord bracelets, blankets.
I picked the catnip socks project, for a shelter. I kept thinking of my Domino-kitty, who crossed The Bridge over 7 years ago, just short of her "Sweet 16th" birthday. I still choked up, to talk about her, and all the others who shared my life.
I think you dodged a mistake, that is all to easy for us to make, to try to keep them here longer than they want to, or can, stay. "Can I "buy" her just one more day in the sun ...?"
When you are ready (and now may be a bit soon) there is a kitty out there who needs needs you like you need them. Not a "replacement", but a new relationship to be cherished.
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Take care, good luck.
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Many times every day I get 'gifts' - music, inventions, buy food - where I want to, but cannot hug the givers. J.S. Bach hasn't been around for quite some time ... So I take those undeliverable hugs and release them "out into the ether" for whoever needs some. Grab all you need.
I'm approaching this horrible duty
My tomcat Bonzi has a terminal lymphoma and is growing weaker, he's also lying differently and his tummy swells on the sides. He's 15 and half years old and I've had him since he was 8 weeks old. He was a real psycho when he was younger and I have scars to prove it, he also decimated the local wildlife until a year or two ago. Now he'd have difficulty killing a fly.
He's on steroids at present trying to shrink the tumour but I think we're approaching the final lap in the next few weeks.
I'm sorry you lost your companion and I know I will be upset when Bonzi goes, although I do have my little female Whizz, so I won't be on my own, but she's approaching 14 and has hyperthyroidism and requires expensive medication twice a day, but she's much more a house cat, though quite a demanding one.
Angharad