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I am out of my mind to invent new excuses to not call and to not visit my parents... And now I had a moment of clarity... Thought of visiting my parents is causing me to have mild case of panick attack... And so I try to overcome it and visit my parents in that season of love and understanding....and just a thought of it causes me to have a panic attack...
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I have
Regular panic attacks - thing is its part of life. In the past i've let it get the better of me, it's nearly stranded me up a mist shrouded mountain, it's made me abandon plans quite a few times and for why? Who knows, when i've managed to push through i've had some great experiences and everything's turned out fine.
So, deep breaths, tell myself I can do it and get on with it.
I can get in quite a mess when I meet new people but strangely this doesn't manifest in more casual situations. I even got panicky meeting someone i've known for years but not seen for a while.
And yet, for decades I worked in retail, I travel a lot on my own, I've done a bit of lecturing - all without issue but meeting cousins i've not seen for 40 years had me ready to do a runner just last week. Aargh!
Hang in there
Mads
Madeline Anafrid Bell
huggles, hon
I know how the panic attacks go
Words of advice
Coming from a person that had a pretty bad case of PTSD after an event that took place while I was in the military.
Do what you feel is right for you. If that means going to see them or not, do the one you want, not what you think they expect you to do.
If you do visit and are rejected, tell them it's their loss, smile and walk away.
We the willing, led by the unsure. Have been doing so much with so little for so long,
We are now qualified to do anything with nothing.
PTSD
I been living with PTSD since I came home from Vietnam . every night its a rerun. it sucks. after a while you just learn to live with it.