I Need Courage To Live...
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Lots of us are in the same boat here. I am sorry to be whiney. I started Isolating about the first of March and it is getting old, really old. I am very lonely. I get all masked up and go grocery shopping about every 10 days and that's it. I've seen two ads about people over 50 getting together but that will have to wait until after the second vaccine.
About a week ago, something broke or something. All of a sudden, arousal is really strong in me and I've started looking at porn. I seem to lack the ability to make anything happen because self stimulation is not enough. I've avoided any sort of Boy Friend because I can't get round the idea that a major part of me is still a boy, and I do not want to be gay. Tonight I decided to hell with it. I want a boy friend, and I want someone to fuck me. I have the proper opening, so Anal is not needed. The problem with T folk having a boy friend is that they tend to get killed. I don't know what I'm going to do. Guess I'll have a bath and go cry for a while. Thanks for letting me vent.
Gwen