You can thank Tels I'm still here
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Well, you guys can thank Jaci (AKA Tels) that I'm still here. I woke this morning feeling completely numb. Nothing mattered, nothing had any meaning of any kind. As I went through my morning routine like a zombie, I came to the conclusion I had to quit being Dorothy, since I had lost my family and my daughter didnt want to be seen in public with me. I dont know how long this would have lasted before I would have done something drastic, but fortunately, Jaci was online, and agreed to phone me.
She pushed me until I finally could start crying, and then it was like I couldn't stop, I wept and wept until I was exhausted, and then she went through what was happening to me. See, before, if someone hurt me, they actually were hurting Todd, a mask and armor I wore. Now, I'm without that armor, and I feel much more vulnerable to even the slightest signs of disapproval. Not to mention, that she pointed out my chance of survival as Todd is pretty much nil, that I am a woman, whether I want to be or not, and trying to fight that would only hurt me until I wouldnt be able to stand it and do something drastic.
So, once again, my thanks go out to Jaci.
Big hugs, sis.