The Uncomfortable Truth

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The Uncomfortable Truth
By Stanman63
Melanie Ezell's Big Closet Ultimate Writer's Challenge
Synopsis:A young Transwoman reflects upon her life. .

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My name is Constance Lee Davenport, or at least that's the name that I want.You see, I am a transgendered girl who never got the chance to be who I wanted to be in life. My parents name me Conrad Lee Davenport after Dad's father Conrad David Davenport and Mom's dad: Nathan Lee Connor.

Now don't get me wrong, Mom and Dad loved me, and I was a very happy kid growing up. I was into sports, Scouting as well as learning domestic skills from Mom. I was a well rounded kid. But for all of my happiness, I was empty inside. I would look at my friends and wonder if they felt like I did, then one Halloween, I discovered why I was empty.
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It my senior year at Westmoore High School, I was looking for a costume. Luckily, I took after Mom in my build. I was a 4ft 11in tall powerhouse whose small size made me an excellent quarterback.

Mom had an old Zatanna outfit, so I chose it since I thought that she was hot and wearing tights wasn't new to me. I'd worn tights when I was Peter Pan and Robin Hood for Halloween, before. I liked the feel of the tights and was pleased with seeing my legs displayed in what amounted to a minidress, but I never connected that with being a girl.
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Momma got me some breastforms and a gaffe that looked like a girl's vagina for my costume. Since Halloween was celebrated on Saturday, I dressed as a girl starting on the Friday before. Being a bit mischievous, I decided to wear Mom's old cheerleader outfits with pantyhose, much to her and Dad's delight. They wholly approved of my immersing myself in my role, knowing that I always gave it my all whenever I did anything.

They told me that I looked exactly like mom when she was in school, and proved it with pictures, too. Looking at her pictures and myself, I realized that I should have been a girl all along and told them. When I told them, they told me that they suspected as much and were willing to let me transition into a girl, but I was to be denied that pleasure.

Even though I won a trophy for best costume and made most of the boys drool over me, my body betrayed me soon after by suddenly going through a delayed male puberty. I found myself undergoing a growth spurt and hair sprouting up on my body as my voice deepened until I went up to 5feet, 11in tall by the time of graduation, leaving me a hairy ape, like Dad.
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So, here I am, in my casket after being found dead in my room from a heart attack caused by my bodies over stressing my heart. Now, I will never be the girl that I wanted to be while I lived, but I am a girl up in Heaven and my parents have honored me with a tombstone that tells of the real me.
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Constance Lee Davenport
Beloved Daughter
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Finis

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common theme?

Not knowing you are transgendered and having it slammed into consciousness by some random event. For me it was a 15 min part of a therapy session, with a therapist I've seen hundreds of times. And it turned my life upside down and I'm still spinning.

Confusing?

Stan,

I'm sorry, but I get confused easily it seems - the story both starts and ends with Constance Lee Davenport.

But the final 'section' is about Tina Francis Bishop.

As I said - I'm confused!

Diana W.

"The Cost of Living Does Not Appear To Have Affected Its Popularity"in most, but not all, instances

The Uncomfortable Truth

Sorry, part of another story that I used as an inspiration.

    Stanman
May Your Light Forever Shine
    Stanman
May Your Light Forever Shine

How does someone

go from 4'11" to 5'11" in the short space of seven months? When her parents had already approved of her being a girl? Did her parents wait too long to have her on blockers and hormones? And what happened between the time she had this growth spurt and her death? What conflict did she endure regarding her inabilty to pass? In other words, where is the stigma or the inability to express herself that the challenge suggests?

Yeah, and

I wonder how many bodies were involved. The only thing we know for sure is how the name was decided. Everything else is a fast moving blur.

Triona

I never needed approval for my being the girl that I am.

Having had my orchiectomy done at ten years old at the advice of my psychiatrist, I still have a few more surgeries to go. But nobody where I live ever doubts that I am female, and because my estrogen levels are above 70% I am endcrinologically female, and have that designation on my driver's license. You said once Stan that you thought I was genetically female.

I will put what I said here is that if genetics are a born with thing, and I was born female in a male body, then yes, I am a genetic female. When I was younger, they did a blood test for estrogens, and found a lot of diethylstilbestrol (DES) in my system. All it needed to awaken was a kick start of premarin. Over the next two years I developed like any girl would. So with the DES in my system, yes I am a genetic girl.

You all can argue that if you will, but like I said, genetics are a born with thing, and I was born female in a male body because of the DES so that makes me a genetic girl.

Thank you Stan, this is a cute story with a tragic ending. Were you ever a thespian? :-) Thank you for sharing.

"With confidence and forbearance, we will have the strength to move forward."

Love & hugs,
Barbara

"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."

"With confidence and forbearance, we will have the strength to move forward."

Love & hugs,
Barbara

"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."