So it's been a long while since I posted an update about myself here. I've still been around, working behind the scenes but many may have noticed that I've not been very "public" at all lately.

Truth is, I've been through hell and back, and I don't think I'm done yet.

Over the past couple months, I've been round and round and round with the local mental health agencies in the area trying to get help.

I even managed to find myself in the ER the night before Christmas Eve, after putting my hand through a glass cabinet and needing stitches (and cutting myself earlier in the evening too). I managed to talk myself out of being full committed against my will, and was released Christmas Eve morning, but when the crisis counselor got that decision from the Psychiatrist she called, I'm certain she was a bit disappointed.

She tried for about an hour and a half, to talk me into going inpatient voluntarily, but as I was just a few days away from my first outpatient visit with my APN (for psych meds) I' was certain it would be detrimental for my care.

Also, quite honestly, who wants to be in-patient over Christmas?

I have someone wonderful in my life. Like any relationship, we have our ups and downs, but over-all we provide a level of support and comfort for each other.

She's going to school every day, and that's so great, but now for the down-side... She keeps exposing me to various colds and flu's... I've just finished off my 2nd 7day round of antibiotic in 2 months, and I'm not entirely sure I've managed to kick whatever I have.

I guess I just wanted to post and say, that I've been through the ringer, but I'm still here. I see light at the end of the tunnel, and I don't believe it's the pearly gates so I'm going to just keep moving forward and see where I end up!