The Family Girl #046: At Least I'm Still a Size Zero

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Blog #46:  The Upside to Mental Problems, or At Least I'm Still a Size Zero

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I spent Friday evening and the whole day Saturday in the hospital for a checkup. Just a checkup, no big deal.   My therapist thought it a good idea for me to have the checkup, and I did.   And since the set of tests to be done was just a hop, skip and a jump from those required for a full-blown complete physical, I agreed to the extra tests, x-rays and whatnot and made it a full physical - at least the kind of tests that my company's insurance carrier requires for a "full physical."   That means I doan pay nuthin'!   :-)   It's all on the company's bill, and it satisfies the yearly checkup requirement.

The results came Monday (the hospital apparently doesn't process test results on weekends), and then the squad of doctors that my therapist required did their thing and interpreted the results and typed up their findings, and we got everything Tuesday, which we brought to my therapist for her further perusal.

Anyways, my less-than-perfect bod was mostly okay.

There were some things that confirmed some major concerns of my therapist, but we are figuring out how to manage that, and to eventually "cure" me. But we are keeping it within the family for the moment, otherwise it might affect my standing at my  work.   She will consult with the medical care provider so everything's square. Nothig really wrong aside from low blood pressure, low bmr, bmi and fat percentage, and some vitamin n mineral deficiencies.

The blood tests, weigh-in, the urine n poop samples (yuuuck), and the mri,   x-ray and other scans were pretty much what I expected, but there were some other tests that I never had before.   Whoever heard of your hair and fingernails being tested, or your wrist and ankle being measured, or getting your butt and tummy pinched with gigantic calipers that looked like lobster tongs, or the color of the inside of your eyelid being looked at? But, hey, what did I know? Besides, none of them hurt. Thank goodness all of it was done quickly and one after the other.   I was out Saturday evening.

There are times when you feel pretty good, and you are liable to let small things pass, but when you are lucky enough to have an observant professional looking out for you, or a concerned spouse keeping your welfare in mind, things can be caught.   Small things - low weight,  feeling weak and tired often, especially at the end of the day, insomnia, unsociability, feeling cold often even when the temperature outside isn't particularly cold, dry skin, dehydration   even trouble pooping (eww), et cetera. All indicative of my "condition."   And, of course, the eating thing, but that is the problem, isn't it?   

Still, one needs to put a positive spin on things.   Not that I'm avoidiing this, coz it's a big deal, but one can't stop the world and start obsessing about the negative things like this.   Nope, I am not avoiding it.   Besides, Moe won't let me forget it or get away with it anymore lol.

When one's troubling habits are brought out tothe surface so that one cannot hide them anymore, and one has to face up to them - that's the beginning of healing.   I apparently need some kind of paradigm shift, as my therapist calls it, and perhaps try and understand where this is coming from.   Family Relationship problems, maybe? Body image problems? Gosh, I thought this kind of thing only happens to preppy teenage girls. Like OMG. Totally. (lol)

I'm still not totally sold on my therapist's conclusions, but more than eight years has taught me to trust her, if nothing else. So I will just trust her and go along with her for now, although I feel like a kid being watched over all the time, and being checked to see if I finished all my veggies.   Daily skype calls (so even while I'm in Manila, I can update her) et cetera. She even set me up with weekly sessions with a psychiatrist friend of hers who's based in Manila, and got Moe to agree to have breakfast, lunch n dinner with me as often as she can.   Like, OMG! Overkill much? Totally...

On the plus side, though, I think I look pretty good, and I am still a size zero. Lol

  

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Size 0?

Is that in US Junior's sizing?

Is that a US designer zero? In dresses? Jeans? Tops?

Sorry sizing varies a lot in the world :)

Seriously though, if that is your normal weight, that is your normal weight If you are bulemic or anorexic, that is one thing but if not, well it is really none of their business.

Kim

I still don't believe it

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That's what my therapist says. But I don't really believe it. Someone told me Anorexia is pretty scary. Me, I'm not really scared, coz I don't really believe I have it. But my therapist says that denial is usually part of the problem. Well, whether I believe it or not, I am going through the motions of her therapy coz I trust her.

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Oh, my...

I didn't want to suggest that, as it can be serious...

If you treat it as real, you're treating the symptoms. (And, yes, I have heard that denial is part of the issue, too.)

Best of wishes!

Annette

Reading your blog...

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...is like taking a tour where the guide shows you the places no one else ventures; interesting glimpses we might not otherwise see. I appreciate your honesty and openness. I certainly find it refreshing, but I also appreciate it because your willing to be candid and honest to me has made a huge difference in my own journey. Thank you, dear one.

  

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I'm with 'drea

I feel privileged to get such an intimate peek into your life. Thank you for being brave enough to share it.

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It's really nice

It's really nice to see medical professionals working hard to figure out what's ailing us. Some are more persistent than others. Some have more to base their guesses on. And, even with it all, they can still make miss-diagnoses. It's good to hear that you have some folks (professionals and non) in your life to push/prod/make sure you do what's needed to figure stuff out.

One of my kids has had a series of issues - going back almost six (6) years... She's been sent from specialist to specialist... At one point, they thought she had rumitoid arthritis! (at 20 year of age!). Nope, last fall, they seem to have FINALLY figured out what the problem was... And, yes, what it is CAN look like rumitoid arthritis in the young. (See, it's one of those auto-imune thingies that tends to strike folks mostly in their 60s... But, when it strikes in the twenties, it mimics a lot of other things making it hard to find.

I think it's healthy to question our health care providers... They are far from omnescent. I suspect, once they find a treatment regimin - and it seems to work - there's a good chance they guessed what was ailing you correctly. :-)

Best of luck/wishes to you!
Annette