So as everyone probably remembers the last blog post I did was a real hard one for me to write and I've gone to a few doctors over the last few days and had tests done and had a psychological examination done. The test results came back today and let's just say I thank whoever told me to have tests done in my last blog post I would never have found out that I am Anemic and that my vitamin levels were dangerously high. When the doctor called me I was shocked to hear what I did.

According to a study I once read, about 60% of U.S. citizens donate money once a month -- about 75% in UK.

"Bike" enjoys about 600 hits a day. If 10% of BC's consistent readers are "Bike" enthusiasts that would indicate about 6,000 consistent users.

If 65% of those donated to BC that would be almost 4,000 donors per month.

Erin struggles to generate $2,500 in monthly donations.

If those 4,000 donors were to contribute just seventy cents each, the monthly nut would be met.

So why isn't that happening?

Well for those who haven't yet lost patience with me in regards to my story "Mercy", I have good news - I've started working a bit on the next chapter.

Will still probably be a while in coming, I cant spend a lot of time writing, as I have packing to do yet for this move, but at least I am not totally blocked on the story any more.

I also wanted to thank everybody who took the time to send some huggles to Drea, it sounds like they helped a bit.

Huggles to all !

You've probably been seeing a few postings about Kindle books on BC. This is nothing new, Maddy Bell's Gaby series has been on Kindle and before Kindle on Lulu for a long time. Also works by several other authors including Tanya Allen, Katie Leone and me.

Are you an author looking for a good book cover on the low-low (price that is?) Well, have I made a friend who can help you!

okay after a long dry spell where my muse has been sulking in the corner time to start treating my writing as at least semi pro, time to tune on the radio first thing in the morning to sit with a coffee and start.

Have had too many things going on over the time i have not been writing now it is time to take some level of control back. Monday is a new start for me on my Gender journey but this time I am going to listen to the docs and work at it. Along with that time to re earn that princess of prose title so with me luck I'm going in

For the last nearly twenty years I've been writing TG fiction. Most of my work contains one basic theme. "People know more about us than we think they do, and accept more that what we imagine."

I continue to regurgitate this theme because I hate the guilt feelings that I, and others like me have about our desires.

Sometimes I feel like I'm shouting into the wind. Other times, worse.

I wonder of what we read does shape how we think?

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Hey, guys, look! The Shepherd Moon story is out already! Yayyy!!!

Finally cleared my writer's block enough to finish a story. Sadly, its not a new chapter of Mercy, but something much closer to home, and much darker.

I look forward to seeing what people think of it.

As I have stated a few times, I do apologize for the long intermission between posts. Real life has become quite intense and left me little time to devote to my passion of writing. I can see light at the end of the tunnel, but that light is at least another two months away.

Story Idea Suggestion of the Afterlife.

First, Erin. I do not mean this idea as a downer, or in anyway negative. This is meant more of a constructive exercise.

Now, the last month in my personal life has been pretty bad. Crippling health issues and other problems. I am likely not going to die tomorrow. But, I am not going to see the average life expectancy.

Um - sorry, I was out at an AGM for a mammal group I belong to and apart from getting elected on to another committee, I sort of got talking with our mammal records officer and got back a bit late to write Bike.

I was out dormousing this morning and we had six, I got to handle two and it was somebody else' turn to drop one of them instead of me. So here's a photo of one of the ones we had today (dormouse, I mean).

I'll try and do one tomorrow.

It's a simple question.

Why don't more BC writers support Hatbox by contributing stories to it?

I can't think of one valid reason.

It would seem logical that more people would subscribe to Hatbox if their was more quality content. Content seemingly is king. If Hatbox added a new story every week, from authors with followings, there's no doubt the number of subscriptions would skyrocket. More revenue, less doubt about the sustainability of BC. BC is NOT a given.

Hatbox subscriptions are one of the vital supportive measures for BC.

it gets longer and longer!

like it says!

I had hoped to get something out on rohanna/ shadowsblade soon!
but I keep adding in stuff and then go over it and add even more!

It's getting hard to find a stop point! BUT I am almost there!

Finally there is a new Gaby chapter up!

The last time I wrote a blog, it was about me not being sure about if I should release a story I had been working on along with Broken Phoenix. I had someone beta read what I had so far and I got a mixed comment so to speak. My writing is the only thing keeping me going right now and I've lost all sense of happiness. I've seen doctors but they just tell me that it's just stress. I even went as far as to talk to my childhood therapist from when I was transitioning. She noticed right away that I wasn't my normal self and needed help. I'm a complete wreck at this point.

Now that I'm in the polishing phase of the first draft of my novel for dead tree publication, I can turn my attention back to the stories I love that have languished here unattended for so long. Eventually, I'll have to start writing the SECOND novel in the series before I even sell the first, but until then, let's give my BCTS children the attention they deserve. *smiles* First up, No Rules Chapter 6!!

so I play a lot of video games (some would say too much) and often get inspiration from them.

I was playing an MMO, one where my girl was running around in massive, heavy sci-fi iron man-styled armor with a giant laser minigun and rockets and all sorts of ordinance.

And I also rp scenes in my head, or write out what my character is doing and why and all that.

Somewhere along the line I found myself asking: "If I wrote this as a story, how would it address the concept of 'feminine'?"

Here are a few older stories that I find myself going back to when I have exhausted the more current offerings here. There is so much creativity on this site and so many great authors currently active, that I think it is easy to overlook some of the great things hidden in the archives.

Please respond with links to your own favorites and what makes the stories special to you.

I normally don't reply to comments because I simply don't have the time these days. But a guest reader brings up an interesting point. What does constitute the soul? Is it simply our moral compass? Or is it our emotional response to a particular stimulus? Or is it simply our ability to make a decision based upon intuition; gut feeling? One of the many subtexts of this tale asks exactly that question?

WOW.

I guess I should feel honored.

My story, "The Last of the Fey" has been pirated and is being offered for free on no less than two sites (including google).

The pirated copy is the version that is offered for sale on Amazon, so whoever did it had access to my story through the KIndle or KDP select offerings.

Lately it seems when I read over what I've written that I can understand why the vote and comment totals are so dismal.

I realize my motivation should not be to gain the approbation of others but to simply express myself and I do try to maintain that mindset.

Apparently a very small subset do find my drivel worthwhile so I will continue to post when the muse strikes... But honestly right now, I just think it isn't worth writing stuff no one wants to read.

To those who did read, thank you and I'm sorry I seem to be incapable of finishing a story.

I have been trying to do a writing, but not getting very far.

With the move coming, being in a lot of pain, and fighting off flashbacks, that's not surprising, but I still hoped to have something for you guys before the month ended.

Ah, well.

After five years and five months, I decided to (finally) change my username here. So, yeah, no longer Anansi, now Page of Wands. Cheers!