Two of my recent posts have disappeared. It is sad that the readership is seen as so fragile that they can not stand an honest opinion.

What ever.

Gwen

So the VA Caregiver seems anxious to get me on Psych Drugs again. It is chilling. They talk about Borderline Personality Disorder. They have grown so condemning and intransigent that I use a private provider when I can. My private Psychological Nurse Practitioner seems more up to date and we've developed the idea that whatever personality problems I have come from Childhood abuse. The VA is very concerned that I not own a gun, and that is confusing since I have no history of violence, and was Military Police in the Army. If I had a broken arm, I would take that to the VA.

I watched "Deep Impact" last night and found it so moving that I deeply wept until I thought I might pass on. I finally consoled myself sufficiently to gain some dignity back. I doubt that the movie will get awards but parts of it touched on things that inflamed Abandonment Issues and other things.

I've seen a few movies that carry the story to a sort of conclusion, but as I think about them, I have seen no sequels. I am very unfamiliar with so called "Fan Fic", so know nothing of the danger areas. Most certainly, I do not want to get anyone into trouble.

The recent news about T folk laws... I am frightened.
It seems that I have never understood being Transgender. Lately, in my reflections it seems clear that as a child I was very mild. The constant violence and hate I faced then caused me to fear and mistrust males, perhaps even hating them. I saw that my older stepsister was treated well and got to wear pretty clothes. I wanted to be treated nice like her. Did I feel like a female? Who knows, it is doubtful.
Perhaps I do not know what Transgender folk feel?

I don't expect anyone here to fix anything. I have to deal with my own stupidity myself.

Being a total recluse only partly because of Covid 19, I just find things to do that are pleasing to me. I write a fair amount of the time but most of that will never be seen by others. Lately I've been thinking about Art. Not the style of famous people, but most likely Native American Navajo and Shawnee Art. I have some plasticized art paper and I don't even know which side gets the art. I started to use colored markers but the fumes from them almost put me in a Coffin. So, now I have some Acrylics and have no idea what to do with them, or what side of the paper they go on either.

I just finished reading "Legacy of the Anari", again. Looking back on things written about this Author, it seems they have been adequately admired. It seems that they were moving South, but that is the latest entry I see about them. Apparently there was intention to write more but it seems that it did not get to BCTS. Sad that.

I wish them well.

Gwen

I've had both vaccine shots and nearly a month after the second one, I'm still very ill at times. Last night, I finally went to the VA and they said that they are tracking these episodes. Will it all be over soon? I hope so.

Gwen

A man is changed to a woman and sent to another planet and made pregnant by an enemy. Later rescued by a friend and both stay on that planet.

Gwen

I've had new contact with my estranged Son, something I had given up on. He first emailed me, saying he was thinking of me, and tried to talk about my living in sexual sin. Sorry to drop the Religion Bomb on you, but I shared Matt 19:12 and Isaiah 56:4-5 with him, and later I got an email from him asking for my forgiveness.
He can't speak a sentence without using Scripture or mentioning God.

I'm very thankful but I do not plan on a deep relationship.

Gwen

President Elect Joe Biden is planning to nominate Dr. Rachael Levine as HHS Secretary. I wish them the best, though I think that some will fight this. She is Transgendered.

Due to Covid 19, I haven't been out more than once a week, to avoid it, and that is since January. Life is just really strange right now. I've been doing my best to keep distracted and calm, though the VA is anxious to get me on Psychotropic drugs. I doubt that I shall follow their wishes.

Out of curiosity, Is it easiest to write about a deeply flawed, even perhaps handicapped protagonist, or one who is nearly perfect, and very high IQ?

Gwen

Once again life is too smart for me. I just saw a story that I'd like to read called "Wundergirl" By Shawna. It's on Patreon I guess. I pay those people $50 a month, yet I can't seem to get to it. What gives?

Gwen

War of the Worlds has been reproduced many times. I am surprised. I just happened upon a delightful preview version of it on YouTube set around the turn of the 20th Century with the long skirts and such. I have been trying to rent the full version of it but the BBC seems reluctant to do so. I even subscribed to BBC and gave my address as Dumfries, but they seemed quick to suss out my treachery. My next approach might be to use something to show my address in the UK, but not be there. I'm reluctant to do that because I do not wish to be spanked.

Suggestions?

The Film "Avatar" has just lots of six legged animals. It makes me wonder why there Navi are not six legged?

I've also been re-reading David Weber, where the birds, mammals (?) are Hexapods. They have Treecats that are 6 limbed and live in the trees.

How did the makers of "Avatar" copy David Weber's Heptapods and not be in trouble?

I've been at BCTS for a long time and many of you have expressed kindness to me in that time. I'm so thankful to you all. I just wanted to make sure I had a chance to express that sentiment in case things went really sour.

I live in Portland, Oregon, right next to the ICE center. The demonstration tonight included yelling, explosions and tear gas that got in my 4th floor apartment through an open window. There was no warning. The demonstrators were attacking without warning. I almost went to the hospital but some medication stabilized me.

Peace to you all.

Gwen

I am reading a Kindle Book that makes me very uncomfortable because I have personal experience with the subject matter in a very specific way. I've been personally raked over the coals by the company and SEEN the manipulative way their parent company gaslights them. I'm very upset and feeling like I'm going to have a Panic Attack. AND, there is an admonishment to comment on the work and so far I can find no way to do it. I paid for the Book and think that it will be best to walk away from it. I can be a lot more specific but then Erin will be very upset. Dropping the Mike now.

I wanted to write a story about twins, girl and boy who were very close, perhaps right up through High School and longer perhaps. As twins sometimes do, they played games with their parents, switching clothes and so on.

I read this story more than 10 years ago, I think. Since the Author was so much better than I, It seems that it would be better to read their story rather than my own.

Has anyone an idea where I might find this story?

Thank you

Gwen

A character that I am writing, a most exceptional young lady, writes and speaks 5 languages, English, Spanish, Arabic, Urdu, and Afghani. She writes two ancient languages that she uses for scholarly study. She has a Phd. in Archeology, and Sociology, with some expertise in other ancient History.

I was a blue collar worker, so have no idea how one would accumulate that much education. She's obviously a Polyglot and has a rather high IQ.

It is obvious that there are members here who know the answer to my question.

Thank You

Gwen

With the recent disclosure of Paris Hilton, I begin to suspect that lots of people have severe trauma in their lives, yet somehow manage to hide it and pull together a reasonable life. I'm no exception. The mistake I made was to marry a severely damaged partner and eventually our lives caved in. She was an Alcoholic and I changed male to female.

https://www.cnn.com/2020/08/11/health/tomboys-lisa-selin-dav...

I am angered by the ignorance in this CNN Article. It's all about it being OK for girls to be Tomboys, and just goes on and on. Yet, if a boy tends to be effeminate, many of us know there is hell to pay.

It is amazing that they had the cheek to publish this article.

Gwen

I am writing this out of frustration and I hope that my ire is not offensive to anyone. With no one to spank me, there is no telling.

So I bought "Accidental Romance" and just finished it. The writing is excellent and it was a great story.
For me, SRS does not enable coitus. My problem, not yours. There does not seem to be a way to comment on it. :(