Deeply ambivalent
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Thanks to all the folks who P.M.'d me. ....kind of a 'wellness check'.
I'm fine. My muse..... seems to be M.I.A.
Against my better judgement, I'm a few keystrokes away from posting the stuff I've been holding back. It feels forced and ...not good enough.... to post.
Still, the need to prove that I haven't been 'slacking off' is overpowering my lack of confidence in the stuff I'm ....laboriously... cranking out. When entwined with the muse, things just ....flowed.
I'd post them before I had time to doubt myself (or the muse) and - surprisingly - the reaction was far more positive than I'd expected.
After such a long spell of self-doubt.... feeling abandoned by the muse.... I'm grudgingly thinking of posting my muse-less prose.... if only to prove to people why I kept this sub-standard stuff to myself.
I guess, as one correspondent suggested, it's not really for me to decide....
So... time to put up the stuff I feel has potential - not yet realized (or at least sufficiently polished).
Sigh.
;-)
K@