Being a Depressed Person

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Many people have a chemical imbalance that causes depression. Others have forms of PTSD. I'm in the latter category.

I'm getting better, and that is a fact. I was a mess last Christmas, I let my anti depression meds run out and was spending Christmas alone (actually, it just felt that way).

MoonGoddess posted a thread something like this, and I responded. I agree with everything she said, if you are suffering you don't need to! Get help!

Having said that when I am in the midst of the worst of the funk I shut down. I can't ask for help, it is just too hopeless. This is bad.

Part of the solution is community. I make it a point to check in on several local people whom I know are fighting this issue.

I also fight my depression by being active in the community, helping folks who step forward seeking help with being transgendered people. It is not just men, but women who need to become men.

Then there is this site (and others). I use the chat here often (it helps a lot).

My therapist is having me text or email two positives per day. This is to break the unnatural hold any bad things may have and bring the good things to fore. It seems to work.

I waited way too long to accept myself. I kept hoping I would just drop dead, unfortunately my genetics worked against this plan. Plan B didn't work out because I didn't want to hurt my family. Even at my most irrational I still think of them first. So Plan C, which I had never considered in my wildest dreams, was born. I transitioned instead. I did not see this coming, 5 years ago it simply wasn't an option.

So if you are feeling down look for help, we are out there. In my case Dallas and north of that. We care a lot. We can't all transition, but we can get help from people to do care, and it does get better.

I'm still a depressed person. I fight it, but sometimes it overwhelms me. But in fighting it, it has gotten better.

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it does get better.

yes, it does. Keep fighting, Wendy. You're a valuable member of this community

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To be alive is to be vulnerable. Madeleine L'Engle
Love, Andrea Lena

Hugs

The giving and receiving of hugs also helps with depression. This is one of the reasons why I like hugging people. :)

One of the things my therapist taught me

is you choose to give other people power. You don't have to do this. Ignore them as irrelevant, and move on.

Many people write here as a form of therapy, it works. So don't let someone ruin something you enjoy. If necessary ask them not to respond, or turn off the comments like some other good writers do here (it can be done). Emails and PMs can be deleted before you read them.

The usual saying is

Angharad's picture

others only have power over you if you let them. Like most of these things it's easier said than done and takes no account of how vulnerable an individual can feel.

I'm glad you're doing better, the two positive texts a day is a good idea.

Take care,

Angharad

Angharad

Well...

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Assuming this doesn't get censored as well...

I get so angry. Like right now. Like want to break things angry. And when the anger is spent, everything is just so bleak and hopeless.

BigCloset, you win. There is no place for me here.

~And so it goes...

I do notice your original comment is gone,

which puzzles me. There was nothing offensive in it towards the person you were angry with, because you didn't name them. Feelings should not be censored.

If you ever find another writing site drop me a line.

Expressing a desire to harm someone is sort of the essence...

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Expressing a desire to harm someone is sort of the essence of unfriendly. And that person is identifiable to lots of folk here.

I'm not censoring feelings here, feel however you like, but do not use everyone's space to express hatred toward someone. That's not just a feeling.

Hugs,
Erin

= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.