Felt like a fraud today

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Well, I went out for breakfast with my mother in male mode, and I felt like a total fraud. I've never felt so uncomfortable going out as a man before. I felt like I was in drag, and that's a new feeling for me. Ah, well.

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NEVER

Girl you are never a fraud you are who you are---HUGS RICHIE

Been there done that

I did and occasional foray into drag routine for my parents for ten years. I was living full time the rest of the time and it was to say the least awkward. At one point, while preparing to visit my father who was in the hospital, Mom had to go to the ladies room and she really needed help but obviously she did not even suggest I help her since I was her 'son'. The irony. I think there are so many of us who has had to do that so you are hardly alone.

Kim

is there a reason

that you go out with your motheras a man? Wouldn't it be easier to show and tell everyone that you are Dorothy, espescially now that you're on hormones.

This is a normal part of the

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This is a normal part of the process, and it's not going to go away until transition is complete. And that means, in the view of everyone in your life. Ultimately there's not going to be a way around that. You're still living the double life; what you're experiencing now is the shift in which of them is, to you, the primary, 'real' life. And it's leaving your family outside your real life. That will need to be resolved eventually.