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Hi! It's been a while :/
I'm so sorry. My life has been even messier than usual. I turned 29, got really sick again, found out I have some heart problems and my awful diet and constant stress isn't helping and have had to try and rework my life. Mental illness combined with being trans = Bad.
It hasn't been going well, and I won't bore you with the details cos honestly, they're kind of boring.
Regardless! I want to get back to writing. I've actually been reading a lot to try and help hone my skills, and I've been reading a few trans/Gender Change stories on my kindle, some I even recognize from this site (like The Reluctant Girl series and Stations Late Night Princess). It's been really helpful, and I would love more recommendations! Please. I need more. I am in love with using Kindle on my phone in my bed. How did I never buy it until now? Ugh!
One story I'm looking for and can't find was about a boy who goes into an alternate reality (?) where girls have guns and he becomes a gun girl (?). It wasn't fully posted so I'm not sure what it was exactly about but it was on Kindle, I just couldn't by it at the time. But now I can! But I can't find it :/ I think someone called Simkin wrote it? It was part one and there's a part 2.
But! With actually writing...I haven't been doing so great. I said recently that I was going to post the 14th chapter to the Waitress and I wrote most of it and it sucks. I spent way too long away from that story and whatever ideas and dreams I had for that story are dead. I re-read it and I saw so many plot-points that I wanted to fix and pacing issues and character inconsistencies and it just killed any enthusiasm to write more.
And I can't complete it. I'm sorry. I'm not going to start posting any story here that isn't finished anymore because I realize how unfair and annoying it is to my readers. I'm sorry :/ The kitten cookies are dead forever.
I've been planning a new story and it's coming along fine, and I might start posting it soon because I've actually gotten the hang of zooming about and not worrying too much about what I write, so long as I don't look back and the future is still full of good stuff. First drafts, baby!
I tried NaNoWriMo and I learned A LOT. I'm not going to be able to finish it though. I started over 12 stories because my mind is a many-tentacled kraken of distraction and I have pages upon pages of planning with no words. But now I know what I did wrong and what to fix and what to do now ^_^
I forgot what else I was going to say. I think I covered everything I want to though! Thankyou for reading! :) And sorry, again :(
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If you mean simkin452's first two Gun Princess Royale stories,
The easiest way to find them is to look them up on Amazon by the author's name, which is Albert Ruckholdt (Rückholdt on the book covers).
I tried using the links that were posted at the bottom of the intros to Books 1 and 2 here, but they only went to the Book 1 page on Amazon.
Ah! thankyou! That was what I
Ah! thankyou! That was what I was looking for, and I found them on Amazon. Thankyou ^_^
Not a fox
Don't be so hard on yourself
Sorry for not responding to your post sooner, but I don't always have the time to check the blog posts. Sounds like you might be going through a bit of a rough patch in your life, but please don't despair. I'm sure there are people who care a great deal about you and your welfare. Don't be afraid to reach out to them for support - you might be surprised you find encouragement in the most unlikely places! (I speak from experience as I'm in the middle of a divorce after being together for 28 years! Many of my friends who I didn't speak with much have been continually looking after me these past few months!)
Also, don't be so hard on yourself about your story issues. I'd like to be the first to say that I'd rather read a story with a good strong plot and emotion with pacing issues and character inconsistencies than a perfectly written story with no plot at all. While you may feel that the pacing killed the story line (as Alex never made it to the cafe), I honestly don't feel it did. It was one of the few stories that kept me coming back to this site throughout the day looking for story updates.
The Waitress had readers emotionally feeling for Alex and wondering what was going to happen next; something many stories fail achieve. Captivating an audience is a unique quality you have as a writer, and I think you should leverage this skill and be less concerted with any story inconsistencies. Or better yet, if it's still a major concern for you, reach out to someone here and have them provide editorial feedback before you publish something. I'm sure there's quite a few folks here who would be happy to proofread and provide editorial feedback.
Anyhow, I really hope you reconsider bringing the kitten cookies back - I'm honestly sad not knowing what will happen to poor Alex. It seemed like everything was going wrong for him and he wasn't even going to finally realize his dream of being a waitress.
Thanks again for sharing, and hopefully, we'll see more stories from you in the new year!
Hugs!