2016-03 (01)

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It's still not completely official due to red tape (still 3 or 4 steps left but the effect will be redated to March first) but here I am on the first day of my retirement with my head way out of the ballpark.

2 of my sisters and Mom felt the need to bang on my front door for half an hour last Wednesday in a slight panic proving they care but don't know me. But I guess I can understand why they felt that way with all that's going on lately. Ended up with me going over to my Mom's place with my dog (cats had enough food and water for a few days) till Saturday (didn't really have a choice goddamn bully's *joking*) and me going from there to school by train due to the distance on Thursday and Friday.

Friday I spend an hour and a half talking to my guidance councilor about taking the rest of the year of and restarting in 2017. Why? Well the only thing I seem to enjoy at the moment are mostly F/F type stories and working my anger out with shooting things up in games (loved the open Beta for 'The Division'). And by enjoy I mean not throwing it aside after a few minutes or being able to concentrate for more then 5 minutes on what I'm doing (plays hell in class). Heck even food doesn't do much at the moment and I love Food. Or at least I used to.... Still eat enough (although not that healthy) when I'm hungry or just frustrated.

Don't know I would be able to get out the door more then once a week if I didn't have school and some good guys as classmates. My dog is probably getting tired of me at this point for the, seriously high, lack of walks. I'm suck big time at talking care of myself at the moment but this is the first I slipping this much in taking care of the pet which doesn't help in me feeling better with myself.

I have been thinking about getting admitted but I don't have anyone that can take care of the pets. So that''s a no for right now for that and several other reasons. And I don't trust anyone for more then a day with them anyway.

Which brings me to a 'Bad' thought. To let them sleep in, getting declared bankrupt and getting admitted. And even if the bankruptcy didn't work the maximum they can confiscate is somewhere around a 100 euro each month leaving me 1100 euro (at least if I didn't get anything wrong legalwise) which covers more then just living here. But it's the first part that I'll have problems with. And they will be stacked on a mountain of other problems. 恥 *sigh*

No clue what to do but I need to do something because I keep sinking deeper and deeper (even without my Mom pushing *facepalm* > she really doesn't get me).

Lynne