Warning: Don’t read this if you’re squeamish there’s a lot of nasty things that are going to be said. If the moderators think I’ve went too far in explaining what has happened to me then they are free to remove it. I just wanted to get this out into the open.

Hey everyone, with my life becoming more hectic by the day, not having a reliable way to create content, my content not having the luster it once did and me not having motivation to write anymore I have decided to retire from writing. I know this may come as a shock to some people but I just think now is my time to retire. If anyone wants to do fan continuations or rewrites of my stories then feel free to do so as long as you credit the original. This wasn’t a decision I wanted to make but it was one I needed to make.

As the title says, I’m looking for an editor for an upcoming book I’m writing. I have a decent bit done already but I need someone to go through and fix things like grammar, fix sentences that may not have come out right, and fix word choices that are not exactly fitting for the situation they are used in. If you’re interested, PM me on here and I’ll talk with you about the story and what it’s about.

Ok, so not too long ago I made a post on here talking about my struggles i’ve been going through. Since then I’ve built my confidence back up and am doing a lot better. I have some very weird children, they HATE meat. But will eat more fruits and vegetables than I can. I’ve actually given up trying to get them to eat meat and have started giving them other foods to compensate for the lack of vitamins from them not eating meat. They also take vitamins twice a day to supplement their diet.

Just a quick update on me and me asking you guys to help me find new stories to read that I can get into. My health is improving although I’m still in the hospital, I was in the midst of a very severe Anorexia episode and now I’m improving although it hasn’t come easy. As for the stories I like, it varies. I love Tiffany Shar’s stories, Sue Brown,Torrey,Zoe Taylor, Paula Dillon, Jennifer Sue, Jennifer Brock. I could list at least 20 but I think you guys get the point.

The story I’m looking for started out with the main character either going to University or working in one and one of the teachers or head of departments was working on a time travel device and uses the main character as a test dummy and it allows the main character to go back to when they were young and allow them to rectify the fact that they didn’t come out to their mother about wanting to be a girl. This part of the story takes place in the 1950’s/60’s I think.

Long before I joined BC officially, I read a story that I've been longing to read again.

From what I remember of the story as a whole, the main character is a kid in either Middle or High School and is without his mother who "left" a few years earlier but it is found out later in the story that the abusive father had killed the mother and dumped the body in the septic system. I think at one point in the story the main character changes gender albeit I don't remember exactly how.

I hope that's enough for you guys to pinpoint which story this is.

Here I am, 21 years old and longing for someone to love me. I have my adopted family but it’s not really the same. My transition was rough and no guy really wanted anything to do with me.

At the time it didn’t bother me as I was in transition and really wasn’t trying to please any of the guys I went to school with.

A while back there was a story I read that I don't remember the name of and I wanted to go back and read again.

The beginning of the story starts with a kid at if I remember correctly an All Boys Boarding school or some form of an All Boys school and the main character is preparing to leave because their body is turning itself into a girl.

The main character gets into some art/Music college and eventually becomes a famous singer.

Thats all I honestly remember about the story. I hope thats enough for you guys to point me in the right direction for the story.

I've come to a realization that I'm not the kind of person I thought I was. Last night I went to post a story I had written and I come to find out that what I had written had unknowingly ripped off another story. Upon that happening it really hit me, I can't write anymore. Anything I write could possibly end up the same way and I don't want that.

So, to save my sanity and put this to rest I'm putting down the pad and paper and moving on from writing as a whole.

To anyone that even cared to read what I wrote, I thank you.

Ever since I joined BC I've had this nagging feeling that I'm just wearing a mask when I'm saying anything on here. I know I'm not but, it feels that way. Sometimes I feel that I'm living a lie even though I'm not. If you know even the slightest about me you'd know I had it rough growing up. What you guys didn't know though is that I didn't really get to fully transition until after High School because nobody in my family supported me besides my grandparents. School for me was Hell!

This really wasn't a post I wanted to make but I need to say something thats been eating at me since Thanksgiving.

A while back one of my sisters kids was in the car with her when she got into an accident. If you want the full story I made a blog post on it. Long story short her kid had to have a gender "switch" and they're not taking it well at all. I had the kid alone with me in the den and they told me "I don't think I'll be around much longer, I'd rather be gone then be like this."

We all have those times when writing a story that we get stopped for various reasons. Perhaps the most common is Writer's Block. We've all experienced it at one point or another, whether it's not being able to figure out where to go with a story, or not knowing what to do with a given character. It happens to the best of us and it's almost unavoidable. Another reason for being halted on a story is that sometimes we lose motivation to write and it takes something sparking us to remotivate us into writing.