Today my family will declare me to be over-the-hill officially as I have achieved that milestone that women don't talk about. I have my George Jones CD cued to "I Don't Need Your Rocking Chair" and I will use it to remind everyone who rubs it in too much! There is a few more miles left in this girl before she is officially "Over -the- hill" I don't intend to go quietly either! At least I can say I have the best gift already. The wonderful friends and family I have!

I have had a blue day today. I was asked what I wanted to do for my big milestone birthday coming up on the 27th and I told my family that I wanted to invite a few friends over to share it with me. I found out one of them will be in for Thanksgiving with her family, but she will be going back home the same day and won't be able to come back for Sat. My other friend is still mad at me and she probably won't want to come for my birthday. I just don't know why I am still taking this so hard over the last month, but it still hurts me so much. I just can't let go of things so easily.

I guess I will leave the writing to the professionals from now on. 847 people read my newest story and only 18 people thought it was good. I guess that pretty much tells me that the majority of you didn't like it. I haven't decided whether I have any muse left anymore. She seems to have abandoned me. Anyway, I guess I will sit back and watch and enjoy the talents of so many others. I am clearly not even close to being in the same league. I might start writing again sometime when I get some inspiration. Right now it seems to be missing.

My entry for the All Hallows Eve Contest is a work in progress but it will be a story attached to my "That Summer I Found Her" Universe. The story is called "The Blood Red Tombstone" and it takes place during the month of All Hallows Eve in the same year Jessica, Kara, Lyndsey and Allysa get married. The story behind "The Blood Red Tombstone" will be told by Kara's grandmother and it will go back to 350 years previous before the Clans were forced to flee to America. It should be up very soon!

I went to my 20th High School Reunion last night and the reaction to me was very positive. The girls I spent time with in High School welcomed me with open arms. We had so much fun! There were eight of us girls out on the floor at one time and we just let loose! We danced four dances in a row before we sat down to rest. My friends were thrilled that I found happiness and that I was finally on the same side of the fence with them.

I am just curious whether anyone has heard from Tanya Allan lately. I haven't noticed her signed on here on BCTS or anything new at her website for a while. I hope she is doing okay?

I have been doing battle the last two days trying to get two of my meds refilled. I have had to deal with the nurse for my Endocrinologist. I have been so frustrated with her I could scream! She interrogated me up one side and down the other about why I needed the refills. I have dubbed her "Nurse Nightmare, because it is a real nightmare dealing with her . I told her that my prescriptions were expired. She kept arguing that I couldn't be out of refills. The doctor put five refills on there, but there is no way that I use five vials in a year.

I am feeling depressed and discouraged over my employment situation(or lack thereof)I interviewed for a job and they asked me if I was available for two weeks training before they opened. I said yes and they led me to believe I would be getting a call. Apparently, they decided not to give me a chance. If there is one thing about being Trans that I do have a problem with, it is putting up with all the blatant job discrimination out there. I have applied for over 500 jobs in the last three years and I very rarely get an interview or even a chance to prove myself.

Anyone have a Targus Universal AC adaptor for your Laptop? If you do, there is a recall on them for adaptors made through March of this year. If you have one, you can go to www.cpsc.gov for further information. Mine was on the list and I was able to return it for a full refund at the place where I purchased it( In my case,Walmart). Apparently they caused fires and may cause internal damage to the computer itself. Since I am waiting for an actual Toshiba adaptor to be sent to me, I haven't been able to finish Part 3 of my latest story. I apologize for the delay.

I started writing this story last night and my muse threatened to be uncooperative, but when I got into it, things just started flowing. I plan to add another part of it tonight because the ideas are flowing once again. I really don't know if anyone likes it, but I assume they do because at least 560 of you have read it. I plan on revealing some more surprises before I'm done so stay tuned!

I am facing the possibility of being homeless soon. My family is wanting to throw me out because my Unemployment has run out and I have yet to be able to find a job. Adding to that, I am being given a hard time for daring to have any friends and if they dare send me anything in the mail, my whole family acts like someone would have to be crazy to be friends with me. I am almost at the end of my rope with the whole situation.

I am considering posting my Autobiography to this site. I wrote it back in 2004 as a way to let my family know how and why I came to transition. I am hoping my story might inspire others who are just starting this journey. Would anyone like to read it? I came across it when I was going through some old papers yesterday and felt inspired to share it here on BCTS.

I saw a magazine headline today that said that Angelina Jolie has begun raising her daughter Shiloh as a boy. There was a picture of her in boys clothes with a boy's haircut. It said that Angelina now calls Shiloh, John. I wonder if this is actually true or if the tabloids are just creating a story where there isn't one? If the child is really transgendered than I can see it, but if it is another one of Jolie's moments of insanity, then I hope something is done to stop her.

I guess my comment about Eve was removed. I was just expressing an opinion that was not meant to to be offensive. I was just frustrated about being teased so much about the story. Just when you think the answers would finally come. It just got frustrating. If I offended, I'm sorry. As an author, I believe in getting to a point in a story and not dragging something out too long. I have seen too many Soap Operas milk a plot line too long sometimes and it gets to be frustrating after a while. I never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings. I just love the story a lot. I was just being sarcastic!

There is line from one of my favorite Garth Brooks songs called "We Shall Be Free" It says "When we're free to love anyone we choose. When this world's big enough for all different views. When we're all free to worship from our own kind of pew. We shall be free". This idea should have been in evidence here before some people let nasty comments ruin the free expression of opinion. Getting to the point of offense is very sad for everyone involved . We live in a country where we are free to express opinions.

I went back and clarified a couple of things in my story "The Letter" Someone pointed out that they thought the car crash was suicide, so I went back and added a more detailed explanation.

My Echo went well on my heart(at least I think so) My heart rate was close to normal today and the test went rather quickly. Anyone who has ever had this test done knows that they make you wear that awful gown with the front open. It was just as cold. My nipples were standing at full attention LOL!. I spent a couple minutes cleaning gel off of my breasts( I just hate anything slimy Ewww!!!) I got to school and the Financial Aid people ruined most of the rest of my day by splitting my grant in half and awarding an exact amount for each semester.

The History Channel just broadcast the moon landing as if it was just happening. They broke into broadcasting and had Walter Cronkite reporting. It was just as if you were there the first time. They are now broadcasting "Moonshot".

Chapter four is now posted for your reading pleasure. Thanks for all the support you have given me.

Hugs,

Jen

The next chapter of "The Assignment" is coming within the next day or so. The last few days have been filled with family stuff and doctor visits. I just started seeing a new Endocrinologist on Friday. She ordered bloodwork on me this morning and then I have another appt. in August with another new doctor. I finally have all female doctors at last! I will be able to ditch that insensitive S.O.B male GP I have had for years. Anyway, watch for my feelings on the subject in the next chapter. Alyce is no longer going to be quiet about things that have happened to her.