Gwen Brown

Producers Encyclopedia of Story Scenes

Most of my time is spent either writing, or watching movies on my computer. All too often I recognize scenes and situations from one movie story in another. I wonder if there is some group that keeps track of these things and use their lawyers to keep from getting caught impinging on copyrighted material from another work? "Marvel" seems to spend lots of time skirting the edge of legality. There was an author on BCTS who featured Strap on Wings in their work, and then died in Europe. I have seen those wings in more than one Marvel movie. Interesting.

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The Anthropology of Desire

I just finished reading a Wiki piece on the Eroticism of Islamic thought. The gist of it is that men are sexually attracted to a covered woman. And, generally women like being sexually attractive. In my years attempting to be a practicing Muslim woman, I liked being covered and really felt secure in the full face covering. The article strips the mystery away for me, not that I think there is anything wrong with being modestly covered. I think that being Muslim or not, generally men like to be in power over women. The Quran and Bible reinforce this. It's a funny funny world isn't it?

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Made To Look Like An AI

Made To Look Like An AI

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Gwen Brown

Waking felt awful. I hadn’t been out at the Pub and had not been drinking otherwise. I could tell from seeing my breath that the room I was in was cold. Yet I was warm, and cosy so would have liked another bit of sleep, yet I was firmly awake and feeling more alert as the headache and unwell feeling passed. Had I been drugged?

Define: Finished Story

I've been wondering about two stories, and what happened. Anastasia Allread wrote Healing a Princess, and Admiral Krunch did Christina Chase. Both have lain fallow since the last chapters were written, though neither story felt finished to me.

Penny Lane's Somewhere Else Entirely seems to periodically get charming carry on chapters.

I suppose HAP could have ended with one more chapter? It is not said what happens to Christina Chase though there is a strong implication that something would follow.

I'm thinking of reading all three of these stories again.

Gwen

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Rago Open Bottom Corset with Garters

Once in awhile I need to go out to something a bit more formal and have been wearing pantyhose. I hate them, hate them! So I got the bright idea to wear stockings with a garterbelt, and finding a garter belt with real garter fasteners is a trudge. So, instead I got an open bottom girdle with real fasteners and serviceable stockings. They were quite nice except the girdle is torture. I reasoned that I would buy one a size larger than my 38 4x. The sad part is the seller does not have a 40. ?x. It is amazing to me that genetic women are able to tolerate such punishment.

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Only Porn Stories

I haven't been publishing stories on the site lately because all I have been writing is Porn and would be suitable only for a site like Literotica. Some may think that I only think of Vanila stories but sadly it is just not happening that way recently. Not sure when this will stop. Not sure what to do about it.

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What's a Sissy?

To be clear, I am Post Op MTF. I am not sure that I am transgendered save to say that my experience with males was dismal and I hated them. I have never had sexual relations with anyone save my wife when I was married.

I am reading a story where a guy is being Sissified, but has a female fiance. Make your head spin? The reason my original marriage ended was I was too feminine for my X. She felt I was gay. I am not.

I present as a woman now and have for 18 years. I don't think Sissies are gay. Perhaps the people that insisted that I transition were simply incredibly stupid?

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Horizon Zero Dawn (Aloy)

I sat up very late watching a movie in which a Gamer took all the parts of a Sony Video Game and put them together to make a movie. I have NO idea how they did this, since I am not a Gamer. Said movie, about 6 hours long was much better than the movies I rent and it called "Horizon Zero Dawn. The main protagonist is called Aloy.

If you look it up on YouTube, I hope that you enjoy it.

Gwen

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Uninstall Kindle?

I seem to have filled up my PC Kindle. I have hundreds of books on it, to the point that they won't let me add anything unless I delete something. Now I have found "Uninstall Kindle". What does that mean? If I do that can I just start over again? I'd like that.
Any ideas? I would like to start over on David Weber's books and maybe The Dragon Riders of Pern...

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Taking Your Ideas

Are you aware that folk that are not part of the BCTS community often use your ideas, often very blatantly. I don't know if someone is stealing your stories, or if some of the authors here simply are part of another creative community. I see this emulation most often in the Hollywood Marvel and other "comic book" realm. Not going to mention names here.

Not crying fowl here at all. After all it could all be quite voluntary.

Gwen

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We Shall Fight On The Beaches by Sue Brown

I've just read what there is of "We Shall Fight on the Beaches" and am surprised that it was not finished.

Was the story ever finished? Does anyone know anything about the welfare of Sue Brown? She wrote just lots of very good stories. I hope that she is well.

Gwen

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Can Someone Explain ?

How did I get here? I am not Gay, never was. YET somehow I am a post operative MtF woman and enjoy living that way. At 75 years old, there will never be intercourse, of that I am completely sure. Lots of those who I know figure I am Gay. I was married to a woman until 2005 for 38 years. She was as messed up as me perhaps, very unaffectionate. We rescued each other from terrible abuse. I worked very hard to heal from its effects. She refused to acknowledge that it ever happened.

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Amadeus Irena

I am trying to finish "Amadeus Irena" by Shawna on Kindle. I have to say that it is expertly written and a hard read. I am vulnerable to significant depressive episodes but still muddling through it. I hope to finish this week end. After that I am going to try to find some Sci Fi for teens.

Gwen

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Using An Editor

A long time ago, someone offered to edit my stories, and I was grateful. They are deceased now. The results were not good in my estimation. I don't remember if that story, or chapter ever got published. Since then I have gone over what I have written sometimes a half dozen times before I published it. Sometimes stories just go comatose on my Hard Drive because I can't get it right.

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Legacy of the Anari

I just finished re-reading "Legacy of the Anari" by Ashley Blayze. I have no idea how I found the story after a dozen years. In my opinion, the story is as good as many of the other SCI FI greats, and yes, it contained Gender Change but without some of the tiresome tropes that most TG tales contain.

Sadly, the Author seems to have done this one off, and disappeared. I do hope that she has gone onto better things and had great success doing them.

Gwen

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It was yonks ago

Many years ago, perhaps even in the 90's, I read a story that could have been Medieval, in which a female (Witch, wizard ?) controlled time by cranking a reel to reel tape back and forth from a tower, splicing and editing it as necessary. It could have been on BCTS but also could have been on another site. It was a good story.

Gwen

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Life Is Sad At Times

I had been friends with someone here for many years and she helped me through times when I was Suicidal. We used to PM and use SKYPE a lot. I even drove hundreds of miles to visit a couple times. Then she decided to get married and suddenly it was just off and completely so. When I asked questions, suddenly another member here felt obligated to be mean and blunt with me, treating me as if I am a idiot. She even asked if she needed to spell it out for me? Then another member with no knowledge of the situation from across the pond was similarly acting like a YOB.

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Two Spirit

I first became aware of the idea of Two Spirit, reading a story here by "Teddie" (Not the LGBT one) but the one that has been with the Native Americans for a very long time. Remembering past conversations and incidents with my family, it seemed clear that I am from a branch of the Shawnee. Yesterday, it was surprising to find that my Counsellor at OHSU Teaching University brought it up and said that Native American Two Spirit is well recognized in her circles.

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It's a Small World

Not accusing anyone of anything.

With Covid and weak health, I spent just lots of time reading here, on YouTube and other sharing services.

Years ago, I remember Joseph Campbell sayin that there are only a few different stories to tell. Lately I am seeing undeniable confirmation of that. Often I'll be reading a story or watching a movie and I'll remember seeing a scene or hearing a line from somewhere else, especially with things that come from Hollywood.

Odd That

Gwen

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Something Has Happened to Me.

A couple of days ago I looked at my reflection in a window and was shocked. I look nothing like a woman, and don't care. I used to work really hard to appear feminine, in leggings and skirt and nice top on my bike. I don't walk much because my knees are both awful, and doing research, at my age (75) knee work just doesn't seem to work out. I'll stop complaining.

Now, when I go out, it is long pants. I have naturally grown B cup breasts but can't wear a bra of any sort because my lymph nodes all up and down my ribs hurt awfully. The girls really stand up with no sag.

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Dungeons and Dragons

It seems obvious to me that some of the stories here were driven by the game "Dungeons and Dragons", though I have had relatively little exposure to it. Some of the scenes in "Stranger Things" are really triggering because of my unwilling exposure to the psychological world and their drugs. Life has been much better since I told them to "F" off. One of the characters, Finn Walthard looks really feminine, If I have the right one. If I had a chance I would do much worse to the psychs than EL.

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What Is Intersex?

In the early 2000's I remember reading articles on the Internet about the studies on Gender and Intersex done by some researchers in Scandinavia. They started a revolution of rampant speculation. I don't think that there are experts who have a firm handle on things. Some of the most significant progress in that and associated fields happened in the 20th Century. As a matter of personal opinion, I don't think that we actually know as much as we think we do.

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Funny Business At Amazon

Lots of excitement in my life just now. I've been cautiously thinking about how I might De-transition, and what good that would do? It might cause a lot of harm by making my housing situation and income uncertain. I rather enjoy not having to deal with men as a man. I don't want to lose that. My Breasts aren't that large, but I do not wish to try to pee standing up, even with my little camping funnel.

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Stupid

I started sneaking birth control pills around the late 90s since I was too stupid to realize that an abusive wife was likely the root of my bad self image. I should have had a divorce instead. It would have been much easier to simply be a crossdresser, and straight. Even Post op, I have not had vaginal intercourse, and it is not likely that I will. Cor, I could have bought a nice car for what I spent.

Gwen

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Using My Body

I watch YouTube a lot and just about the only female on it that does not run around in a bikini a lot is Itchy Boots. Many of the women on YouTube wear the skimpiest bikinis and appear to like it a lot. Due to their wider Pelvis women can generally tolerate thong type bikinis very well, while a man would die in pain.

I'm roughly in the size range of a woman with respectable natural breasts and being post op, there is no tackle down below. If I shaved very well and made a trip to a makeup artist, then wore something sexy, I wonder if I would get away with it? Perhaps too risky?

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Triggered By The Past.

I saw my non VA Counselor for the last time today, I think. I feel good about it. Later I started to watch some episodes of "Stranger Things", and in one Miley Bobby Brown ( of Enola Holmes too.) is thrown into a Psychological Detention cell. That completely destroyed my happy thought. I was confined in one of those at the VA several times, once strapped down. In retrospect that was a huge over reaction on their part and caused by their evil Psych. drugs. Earlier I had been reading an old MRI report that says I have a cyst in the lower right frontal lobe. No symptoms to point to.

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Surprise Acceptance

Not to offend atheists', I don't care about your beliefs. Those who know me think I am nominally Christian, but in reality my beliefs are radically more wide than that and I am more Muslim than anything. I don't normally bring that up, but in this case the surprise I just received may make a difference. I always thought that Saudi Arabia was the center of Sunni Islam, but according to several sources, its Egypt. There 2 years of counselling, and if Doctors agree, Sexual Reassignment surgery may be performed, both ways.

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Thoughts too repulsive to write down

Lately I'm having a sort of cognitive disconnect that is frightening. I've understood and grown accustomed to my rough drafts being embarrassing. Perhaps it would simply be easier to stroke out and die? Mostly I've enjoyed it despite the painful times. Thank you for being part of it. This is not a suicide note.

Gwen

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Mother died, three children hike north

This is set early in the 2000s. A families Mother dies and the children's only living relatives are somewhere north. I think this story starts out in northern Florida or Georgia and they have to hike to somewhere on the middle east coast, or even Maine perhaps. It is a harrowing journey for them and that is all I can remember.

I'd like to read it again.

Thanks
Gwen

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Psychatric Wards

Just finishing up another of Sarah Lynn Morgan's classics "Boy's School". Those of you who know me well, are aware that after my unwanted Divorce (The situation was much more serious than I will reveal) and all the fucking drugs that the shrinks put in me I had a very rough time, and was on a Psych ward 5 or 6 times. In my opinion the "Medications" only made matters worse, and only when I told the shrinks to go fuck themselves and STOPPED the drugs did my life begin to level out. It took years for my body to return to normal.

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Ashleigh Blayze. Legacy of the Anari

I just finished this amazing tale at 4:00 am this morning and feel completely "read out". I've tried to deduce what happened to the Author and I feel the outcome was dark.

I think that people should live their lives and never put themselves in the hands of Professionals. Such a talented Author too.

Gwen

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